Radio Silence Update (Patreon)
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Hey guys and Happy March! Weird that it's already March...
I know I've been kinda quiet, especially after having been relatively active prior to. My art brain kinda just... cut off. I don't know if it was because I'd been seeing my older stuff and got disappointed, or if I was burnt out, or all of the above, but I just couldn't bring myself to turn my workstation back on.
I think I might've plateaued.
Over the years I've found that plateauing is normal, it's when your artistic eye outpaces your ability and it feels like your not improving / that your art is amateurish. I think that's exactly how I feel because a few weeks ago I thought my latest CNMC pages and commissions looked good and then literally a day later I got hit with a wrecking ball of inadequacy.
I do feel like after three years I haven't really improved much. Understand that I stare at my work for hours so I can't really see my work the way everyone else can. But I know I want to improve and I think to do that, I need to get a little more spontaneous in my art approach (and take classes of courses, but I can't afford that ATM). I'm also stressing over other stuff like digging myself out of credit card debt and because I'm SO close it's taken up a lot of mind space.
But other than that, things are ok! I saw Raya yesterday and that re-sparked my desire to get back on the board. I might be slow getting out to sea again, but just know I didn't forget you guys - I'm just trying to figure out how I can be BETTER.
Also didn't forget that WH shipping stream I promised, I just need to get back into the groove!
QUESTION FOR YOU: It's March, spring is coming, and Christmas is not for another 9 months (sorry, Colonel). While I plan to be done weeeell before Christmas, do you guys still want page updates or would you rather I surprise you with the rest of CNMC at the end of the year? Lemme know in the comments!
Thanks guys for your patience and I hope you're well wherever you are in the world. I'm anxious to open the doors of my Cove back to you all when I'm fired back up!
- Qal