Trying Again | The Horny Post | Christmas Eve 2023 (Patreon)
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I have gotten quite big in the last 2 months. I have had trouble with my weight since summer, but I started to get a handle on it in September. It's not that I'm so big, but that my tummy is rather.... bulging. I suddenly gained a lot of weight near the end of October because I stopped exercising after my initial YouTube channel got taken down. I got so sad that I started sitting around eating junk food and not going to the gym. I am incredibly unhappy with the state of my body. It's not cute. I have been hesitant to do topless photos lately because of it. I legit look like I'm in my 3rd trimester of pregnancy. That combined with my small estrogen breasts does not create a pretty picture. I am disgusted and cannot even look at myself also considering not having access to estrogen for the last few months. I think I have fully reverted into looking like a normal dude in his 20s. Not that there is anything wrong with looking like a normal dude, but it is not what I see myself as. I am hesitant to even call myself a femboy lately because of it. But instead of sitting around and moping, what am I going to do about it?
After 55 days of not exercising I finally got back to it yesterday. I went to the gym with my beer belly (despite not ever drinking) and did my stretches. I did 100 sit-ups, a 10-second plank, 100 leg crunches, and then started to do my 20 squats. At squat number 11 I felt like vomiting. So, I stopped. I am not where I was 55 days ago, but I have begun the journey to get back. When I was exercising lately I did all described above plus 65 minutes of jogging on a treadmill. It was really working for me. Attached to this post is me at my peak about 2 months ago. I am hoping to get back to that by February. And I will! I have decided that no matter what sad event occurs I will not give up! After all, if I'm not fit then I'm not cute 🥺 And if I'm not cute what man would want to adopt and bweed me? These are the real questions.