Help (Pixiv Fanbox)

Since January I do loose constantly subscribers and it slowly getting critical. I don't know what I've done or what's the reason - I simply don't get any feedback. So it's not easy to live from only 250€ and now with even less it's getting almost impossible. Due to my handicaps that's currently my only income and also one of the last motivations to keep going with drawing art at all. It's not fun if you work hard every single day and don't get anything back.

Two years ago I spend most of my savings for a new working rig and art hardware to keep working on art for you. I knew the risk but I had no alternatives if old stuff broke. I thought it would be an investment into future projects. Sadly just shortly after the slow downwards trend started with the new all time low I have today.

Every day I have to force myself to keep going since those few who still support me, need and earn new content. I do release weekly and it's a huge effort to maintain all the links and files hosted on my server. Plus I also still have ongoing costs for the web space I rented on a fast CDN provider to host all the files. At the same time I also work on a comic commission project which needs time. I'm only one person I can't rip myself apart or sit 20 hours in front of my computer. Stuff like that, needs time.

Leaks and hot linking causing more and more traffic I need to pay for and makes my situation even more miserable.

I never got any big recognition and over the last year I more or less learned to deal with it. Sadly everyday I got remembered on the fact that it's getting more and more hard for me to continue any further. You know if someone gets the recognition it motivates the artist to keep going, to try something new and keep the hopes high. In my current situation I'm completely down and barely able to find motivation. I don't know what happened or if I did insult someone in the past or whatever… I may just need to apologize to those who still follow me for the lack of good content. If something's wrong I would love to change that if you let me know what's the matter and how I can please you more. Unfortunately I don't get a lot of feedback on Baraag or even here. Giving a heart or a comment would at least let me know what you guys likes the stuff I do. Currently when I don't get any of that I assume that my art ist not good at all.

On this point I don't what to write or do anymore. It's high time. It's in your hands how the story ends.