An Existential Ramble (Pixiv Fanbox)

So, I've had a few days to animate thus far. It's been going well, honestly. Making good progress each day. Been rather productive, albeit with a rather lazy day yesterday. Which is fine. The main issue, and it's always been the main issue, is that the sheer amount of content is... too much. To quote George Lucas, "I may have gone too far in a few places". I still plan to go through with it, but yeah. I may reconsider a few things... it's a complex situation I find myself in. A situation of my own making so I can only blame myself, but hey. I've been a cagey mofo about my project so I don't even really need to tell you any of this and no one would be the wiser if I cut things in half or whatever. I'm just perhaps a bit too honest at times.

But really, rambling about it on the internet is part of my stress relief, so if anything it's a mutually beneficial thing.

Still, I'm surprised at myself for being as efficient as I have been. Haven't quite reached my speed ideal, but that's mostly due to me actually putting effort into some of these. This one isn't original or anything, since it's mostly a remake of my original Aerith blowjob animation, but it ended up more high effort than I was aiming for. And some of my other stuff so far is... a little more high effort than I originally was gonna be aiming for. I think that for as lazy as I am, and for how much I do procrastinate... I work harder than I might think at times, since I can't seem to just completely half-ass things even though I'm actively trying to. I'm... learning... about myself... I guess.

I was considering revealing the name of my project, and what exactly will entail from it, but since my rationale is desperately trying to get me to change some things, I'll hold off for now. I will say the troll on my shoulder is just telling me "do it" like Palpatine, so I'm not sure what will win. My rationale or my troll. Usually my rationale wins, but my troll is getting stronger. For better or worse.

Either way... today, I'm gonna work on Nanami before I forget about it. Will be fairly simple. Also more or less know what my next proper release will be, so I'll probably prep that while I'm at it. Mainly need to find the textures and crap, since it's a model from before my computer upgrade, and hard-drive changes and additions resulted in things being all over the place and going through my files and finding everything can be a major annoyance. Best to get it out of the way now.

Beyond trying to guess the mystery character in the main preview, I've got one more bonus for everyone. Since Nier: Tomato has gotten an anime, have 2B in the short shorts and top. Because I can.