トラ塗り　雑記eng　♯1481 (Pixiv Fanbox)

アーカイブ収録用( ˘ω˘ )

最近ツイッターを見てる時間が長いほどモチベーションが低下する気がするので

少し控えようと思うε=(・д・｀*)

私は昔から創作に重きを置きすぎているせいで、絵描きの仲間とか友人とかが中々出来ません。「人間に興味なさそう」と何度も言われたことがあるので、周りにそう思わせてしまっている私にも原因があります。

だから付き合いがあるのはもっぱら商業イラストレーターばかりだけど、獣トークとかは出来ないのでどうしても本当の意味での友人にはなれないんですよね。

もう6年家族以外誰に会わず一人で作業し続けてるし元々孤独耐性は高いけど

満たされない気持ちが消えることはない( ˘ω˘ )

For archive recording ( ˘ω˘ )

I feel like the more time I spend on Twitter lately, the less motivation I have to spend on it.

I'm going to refrain from doing that for a bit.

I've always put too much emphasis on creating, which is why I don't have a lot of friends or friends who are painters. I've been told many times that I "don't seem to be interested in people" and I'm the one who makes people think that.

So the only people I associate with are exclusively commercial illustrators, but I can't really be friends with them because I can't do beast talk or anything like that, so I just can't be a real friend.

I've been working alone for six years now, seeing no one but my family, and I have a high tolerance for loneliness by nature.

The feeling of being unfulfilled never goes away ( ˘ω˘ )