I wanted to share something on my mind and Id love to know what you think (Pixiv Fanbox)
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ive Been debating on quittint drawing for a while now.
i love it and I love you all and the community so much but truth be told drawing has always been a major struggle in my life. It's very hard on me mentally and causes me to have panic attacks because it's so hard.
I love this enough to deal with it though because I want to make a career of this more than anything. I never wanted to be a big name artist or be this noticeable style everyone loves. I just wanted to draw cute simple pictures with the people I love.
Unfortunatly I don't think I can do that anymore. AI drawing has already overtaken me in terms of skill and it's just going to keep improving from here. I won't be able to keep up. In a years time it will completely outclass me.
i can never be a great artist and it's not worth the pain to struggle my way into doing something I love. The money just isn't there. I've been working 50+ hours a week drawing for $300 a month. I've been having to do that on top of my full time jobs to stay alive because I thought I could make something of myself but I see it's just going to get harder from here if not impossible. I really don't want to stop but the money just isn't there. I think AI art is going to be pushing us small time artists out more and more.
I don't do this for the money and I love you all and I never want to say you arnt enough because you all gave my life meaning.
But if I cant make this a future career I feel like I need to alocate my time another way.
I know you all will be with me as long as you can but I dont think anyone else will join with how things are.
I really dont know where to go or what to do from here. This is all ive ever wanted.
But if I stay or go, thank you. Thank you so much for always being here for me. Thank you for letting me know I can draw after all these years of thinking I cant. Thank you for helping me struggle and realize more of who I am. But thank you most of all for being my friends and being in my life. Thank you so much.