I just want to say: Thank you, everyone! (Patreon)

Hello everyone!

I’m sure you already realized that I'm the kind of artist who works on her projects in almost complete silence. This is one of the reasons I usually don't write journals :) But for a long time I felt that something wanted to burst out from deep inside of my mind. There are so many of you who like my works, and I'm sad I can't thank you for that individually for each one of you… So this would be the original purpose of this journal.

First of all, I’m sure I would haven never be able to reach my goals, and make a living from art if you guys wouldn’t be by my side. You guys help me feel special, and that it's really worth doing what I'm doing.

I often get a lot of comments and message, and sometimes it feels like I don't really deserve all the recognition. Occasionally I overthink this situation, and I feel I have to work more and more to satisfy everyone, and nobody willbe satisfied until they don't know I did everything I could, and completely exhausted myself with the work. You know, like “Look, I'm on my knees, sweating blood, I'm worthy!” I have severe anxiety, and I can make such a ruckus by imagining bad situations in my head. It's not easy to free myself of its painful grip. Time to time Ifind it difficult to accept good things, and I usually accept the bad ones more easily. When I get this feeling, I try to drive it away by trying to get into a different mindset. I think the best way I can be thankful for the lot of trust toward my projectsis to put a lot of care into them. That's what really matters the most. The stories, the characters, and to make all of them consistent in their worlds.

Because drawing is my job, I treat most of the parts of it as a real job. SometimesI just have to sit down and keep up, do what I can. I try to make as much and as varied contents I just can. Let it be happy, sad, silly or funny, I love making all kinds of stuffs, so I built my life around work, and to be able to make as much content I just can. Sometimes it can be a lot, and it can be painful to keep up with everything. Butwhen I look through all the work and effort I squeezedin my projects, I never feel regret. Of course I'd like to be better and would like to do some things differently in the future, but that's another thing. I feel I'm climbing an imaginaryladder, and as I get higher, I think I often see more clearly where I want to go next. I already reached a level in art thatmakes me very happy, and I try to include this feeling in my projects. My only wish is to keep it that way, and be better in many aspect.

First and foremost I want to say thank you to my Patreon supporters for all theirappreciation, because they support me with their hard earned money. And I want to say thank you for everyone else on the internet, who follows or shares my works, who comments, or gives any kind of feedback. I feel I'm spoiled to death by you guys. Thank you for helping me to be a better artist, and fueling my drawing engine in many ways.