羽川莲实/hasumi (Patreon)

各位亲爱的粉丝，感谢你们这段时间的等待，我回来了。虽然我已经进行了很多次道歉，导致我的道歉已经没有价值了，但是我还是要向你们道歉，为我这一周以来的任性，然后我想向大家坦白我目前的情况。

在scathach的作品发布之后，我认为自己的状态已经很差了，对创作的工作越来越力不从心，所以打算发布一份公告，告诉大家我想暂停更新调整状态。但是当时我没有立刻申请到假期，所以我打算在休假前再投入到创作中，希望能在休假前为大家带来最后一份作品，没想到这成为了压倒骆驼的最后一根稻草。这个作品要比以往的要复杂得多，它消磨了我仅剩的最后一点理性，直到现在我也没能完成它。在我失败之后，我变得自暴自弃，不想再理会任何事物，所以一直都没有发布公告告诉大家。期间我尝试去调整心态，借助其它东西转移注意力，但是一旦回到创作上就变得头疼起来，而且期间我一想到大家还在期待着我的作品，我就变得坐立难安，在这些负面的情绪下，我的焦虑得不到缓解，进一步加剧了自己的压力。

现在，尽管我知道这个问题不一定能解决，但是我认为向大家坦白会使我的心里好受一些。然后就是大家最关心的一点，我是否能恢复更新，答案是肯定的，我会选择一些不那么复杂的题材，在此期间会慢慢调整好我的状态。最后，希望能得到你们的理解和支持，谢谢！

Dear fans, thank you for your patience during this period. I am back. Although I have apologized many times, which has rendered my apologies worthless, I still want to apologize to you for my recklessness over the past week, and then I want to confess my current situation to everyone.

After the release of Scathach's work, I felt that my status was already very poor and I was becoming increasingly unable to handle my creative work. Therefore, I plan to release a notice informing everyone that I want to pause updates and adjust my status. But at that time, I didn't immediately apply for a vacation, so I planned to devote myself to creative work before the vacation, hoping to bring everyone my final work before the vacation. Unexpectedly, this became the last straw that overwhelmed the camel. This work is much more complex than before, it has consumed my last bit of rationality, and I have not been able to complete it until now. After my failure, I became self destructive and didn't want to pay attention to anything anymore, so I never made any announcements to inform everyone. During this period, I tried to adjust my mindset and use other things to divert my attention, but once I returned to creating, it became a headache. Moreover, whenever I thought about people still waiting for my work, I became restless. Under these negative emotions, my anxiety was not relieved, further exacerbating my stress.

Now, although I know this problem may not necessarily be solved, I believe that being honest with everyone will make my heart feel better. Then comes the most concerning point for everyone, whether I can restore the update. The answer is yes, I will choose some less complex themes and gradually adjust my state during this period. Finally, I hope to receive your understanding and support. Thank you!