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Hello again! I'm alive! 

I'm gonna be real with ya, I've been having a bit of a time :')

I've been having a week off and it hasn't really been going how I expected it to go ^^; It's been rather rocky to be quite honest.

The first weekend and Monday were pretty good! But Monday night was tough. I had to take away Aeris' food at 8pm that night because of her upcoming surgery. She cried all night for her food and I didn't sleep a wink. Her cries kept reminding me of how worried I was and how scared I was about the operation.

Tuesday came and she went off to the vet to have her teeth taken out. I told the vet to do whatever it takes to make her comfortable and healthy so I signed a paper that basically said 'go ahead and go over the cost estimate if you have to'.  [ the estimate was apparently already for taking all her teeth so I actually paid a bit less than I was expecting! small victories! ]

I worried and fretted through the surgery and eventually she came home! She was super drugged up though and I admit it was hard on my heart to see her stumble around and have trouble with basic things. 

I knew this was all normal though. The vet/dentists ended up taking out basically all of her teeth. They left 3 fangs in the front though [ not sure why, but they're the experts and I trust them! ]

Wednesday and Thursday went fairly well I think. She wasn't eating much but she'd eat a little. I know she needs time to heal but I admit I worry about everything. Wednesday she seemed to eat the most, but as time goes on she's becoming pickier and pickier.

She keeps acting excited for food, but when I put it down for her, she just sniffs it and walks away. It's honestly beginning to drive me mad with worry.

On Friday I had a big ol' mental breakdown and spent a couple hours crying :') It's just that I'm so frustrated from feeling a lack of control about everything. I'm so mentally exhausted and worn down from a year of Covid, and now my poor cat isn't eating and I'm so damn worried.

On top of this, I have to give her so much medication. It's all through syringes that I have to squirt in her mouth and I know she doesn't like it. At this point I need to do it 5 times a day. It's just so much.

I've been going crazy at the pet store too. I'm desperately buying anything liquidy in hopes that she'll just eat something. She used to get so excited for the 'Go!' wet cat food on Fridays, and she'd eat the whole package. After Wednesday, she wont even eat a bite.

The broth worked yesterday, but not today so far.

The only thing that's working now is the 'churu' stinky fish paste tubes. I know it's not a real meal but right now it's literally the only thing she'll eat. I even tried some kitten milk formula to try and get her more hydrated, but no dice.

She does look a bit more healthy today though- the swelling's gone down and she seems alert. She likes to sit with me and cuddle, and she purrs when I scratch her chin [ maybe more now than before the surgery actually ]

I just wish she'd eat and drink some more =_= I'm gonna call the vet as soon as they open in an hour, and hopefully they'll have some tips or tell me to bring her in or tell me that this is fine or... something. I'm sorry about this update by the way. I wish I had more happy things to say ^^; I've been crying all morning ._.

I honestly thought the surgery was gonna be the hard part, but this recovery time is actually making me insane with worry. I know I'm probably overreacting but I love Aeris like a daughter. I just want her to be comfortable and ok.

I was meaning to do a little art project but I haven't gotten to it... Maybe I'll feel better tomorrow and try it. I have this tall canvas print of trees I bought a while ago and I think it would look a lot cooler with a shadowy figure walking in the background. If I actually chill out enough to do it, I'll definitely post it on my socials.

As for work, I think I'm just gonna try my best to get back into it like planned on Monday. I don't think I have specific burnout for my work any more, even though I haven't exactly spent this time off 'relaxing' >_>;; And maybe the familiar work will help soothe my nerves. It might actually be better for me than sitting around worrying.

Oh, and in unrelated news I did get my first covid vaccine shot! It went totally fine and I only got a sore arm and maybe a couple hours of sicky feeling. TBH I've been so concerned about Aeris I barely noticed it x'D

I suppose I ought to end the update here, cuz all I'm gonna do otherwise is go in circles about my worries ^^; It's not really the update I was wanting to make :/ But I guess I gotta roll with what life sends at me.

Anyhow, thank you so much for allowing me this time off. I think if I was trying to work during all this I might have just spontaneously combusted or something x'D I really appreciate this opportunity!!!

I hope you guys are doing okay too. Fingers crossed that my next update will be happier and filled with new CGs. I'm gonna do my absolute best, I promise!

Stay safe! <3