Down again, fixing to do (Patreon)

Sorry guys, Easter is next week and I feel I have done nothing even though I did so much recently.

I have some medical stuff to fix, but I feel I let you all down.

Honestly, ALL 2022 was harsh,Sept,November and Dec 2022 was painful and busy. 2023,Jan was impossible, Feb I was barely able to get myself together for one live stream, March I cleaned a few things up and started stuff …

but I hit a wall last Tuesday when I had to go to auto repair and between walking in cold,windy rain and some nasty "routine" ALARM at the shop … my ears have been ringing with any sound. All sound hurts, i'm dizzy, it might relate to jaw issues and the whole vascular thing,but that triggered it.

I have to investigate ALL these, asap.

But I did so much work in the meantime, like bunnysuit pattern improve and new leotards! I have better fingernails for my characters, I got more makeup for "normal skin" stuff. I have a couple gifts to open but I can't live so I'm just gonna do it. I'm very tired very fast into the day so I can barely help my partner for her needs. I get headaches from getting sad and soupy drippy.

You guys mean everything to me, nevermind even money, but to be there for you/me guys to remind me/you that we matter.

I'm supposed to be the tough one but I can't do it unless I get some medical help and fix stuff. I still have implants with no crowns/teeth...temporary crowns on 2 since summer 2019 😞 I need to take care of vericose veins in my leg before they rip and I bleed out. They still won't get me anywhere with the POTS (post osterial tachecardia syndrome) which I've suffered 20years, the "post covid" hit me but also during SARS , I'm still putting up since 2011-2019 getting sick every year to the point of gasping for air evwry morning for weeks. I need a genetics test for EDS to confirm stuff and simply know - which way to go.

I'm struggling and the pandemic destroyed us both at home just after things already started to crush us in 2019. I'm stuck with what I have and still what I need. April is FULL of doc appointments now. I can only update stuff here with what I did recently but didnt get to cut yet, which was fun, but I had to keep moving. So bare with, I still have the xmas tree up...I pulled an all nighter photoshoot the day before that nasty car repair trip/ alarm day, I was doing ok all things considered 😢

Thanks for reading guys, I'll be back soon somehow, it's all been fast and recent.