66 - Be open when talking about your delusions (Patreon)

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I spent the day at school, then after school.
I was in Hiuri's class. Unusually, neither Hayashi-san nor Kannazuki-san were present, leaving only Hiuri in the room.

“Hiuri, I'm here.”
“So you’ve come, Kazuki-kun. I asked Rinrin and the others to go home first, so there's no one here.”

Apparently Hiuri drove away those two. Her classmates other than them also aren’t here, I don't know if it's a coincidence, or if Hiuri drove them away.

“So, what do you want to talk about?”
“This is very important. You may not believe it, but I want you to listen to it as if everything I'm about to say is the truth.”
“...That’s quite, a serious talk.”

I must not make mistakes in the speaking order. Saying anything that will incite Hiuri's fear is not good.
I must not make mistakes in what I say. If I mix in even one lie, Hiuri's trust in me will surely plummet.
I must not make mistakes in how fast I speak. If Hiuri can’t understand me, it'll be over at that point.

I slowly started talking about the dream.
How I met Hiuri in the dream. How I can materialize various things in the dream. And how I became lovers with Hiuri in the dream.
What I talked about was not that different from what I said to Hayashi-san. I spoke slowly so as not to get Hiuri's head stuck in a knot.

“In other words, Kazuki-kun is moving to make what happened in your dreams come true?”
“Well, I guess so. I thought I didn't want it to end just in a dream.”

A normal person would think it was foolish to try to make what he dreamed of come true. But, from my point of view, dreams are another reality. It's not just a fantasy, it's something that actually happened.

“And the reason I sometimes do impulsive things is...”
“It's because of the prayer of Hiuri in the dream. It's more like unconscious guidance than impulsiveness though.”

Honestly, the talk about the dream is the opening act. This is an opening act to explain that I know about her family situation.
However, I must not ignore the talk about the dream. Hiuri is also the concerned party. I must explain the dream properly.

“The me in the dream have a different personality, don’t I?”
“Maybe so. I think the personality of Hiuri in the dream is closer to your natural personality though...”
“That's what happens when you're in a space where no one is watching and only your lover is there. It's not strange, but... to think I had such a strong desire for a lover.”

Hiuri in the dream was desperately trying to become my lover in real life. I guess that's one way of saying that she wanted emotional support in real life, still, she was quite proactive.

“I was surprised too. I didn’t think Hiuri was so proactive.”
“I know right... but, once I fall in love with you, I become completely determined, don’t I? I know that myself.”

We have a lot of time today, we talk leisurely. Since we are alone in the classroom, the sensation is like when we are in the dream.
But, I can hear the voices of the sports club from outside, reminding me that this is reality.

“Were you flirting all the time during the school trip?”*
“Hiuri was the one who told me.”
“Because of that, I felt itchy all the time...”

* (T/N: I don’t feel comfortable changing this sentence even if it seems like a mistake.)

We also talk a little about what we did and when. It seems that the influence Hiuri in the dream had on her during the school trip was particularly strong. The influence is so strong that it makes her do that on the final day.

“This was quite an important talk.”
“Yeah. Are you willing to believe what I said about the dream?”
“Yes. Because this is how I actually started to like Kazuki-kun.”

Once I told her everything, Hiuri believed me. She didn't believe me when I first told her, so this is a huge improvement.

“Now that I think about it, I feel like I heard about this from Kazuki-kun before...”
“I did tell you. At the beginning of second year.”
“As I thought, you really did. But, at that time, I didn't believe you, did I?”
“Yeah. Because there wasn't enough proof.”

Apparently Hiuri also remembered that I’ve said it before.

“To think it was that important... I thought it was a confession.”
“The truth is... I have something more important to talk about.”
“Eh? There is still more?”

As I said earlier, this story is the opening act. The talk about the dream is very important, but there is another talk that is even more important.

“Hiuri in the dream told me a lot of things that you don’t tell me in real life.”
“Are you talking about an intimate conversation?”
“That's true too, but... I’m talking about Hiuri's secrets and things you hasn't told me yet.”

When I said that, Hiuri's eyes widened and she took a step back.

“I, about Hiuri's family...”
“Wait, please, wait.”

Hiuri averts her gaze and holds her head.

“Then about my parents too...”
“Yeah. I know about them. I heard about Hiuri's family situation in the dream.”

Hiuri falls silent. Without moving at all, she keeps her head down.

“.........Does that mean that me turning down your confession was useless...?”
“I don’t think it’s useless, but I knew about it.”
“...”

Hiuri keeps her head down and refuses to make eye contact with me.

“I, uh, I am...!!”

Immediately, Hiuri ran away.

It was so sudden that I was slow to react, but I chased after Hiuri.
However, I lost sight of Hiuri once I got out of the classroom. Hiuri is athletic after all...

“I have to look for her.”

In order to get Hiuri to calm down and to convey my feelings to her again, I’ll go to find Hiuri.

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