57 - What happens when we exceed our capacity for thought? (Patreon)

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In the dream. Hiuri hasn't come yet.

I'm going to ask Hiuri directly about what happened today. Why did the Hiuri in real life act like the Hiuri in the dream?

“Kyu─n.”
“Ah, Muu. There, there.”

I let Muu eat spring rolls until Hiuri arrives.
Muu eats anything, but I wonder if it has any preferences. Since it's a fox, would it like inarizushi?

“Kyun!”

That’s an agreement... I think. When I try giving it some inarizushi, it starts eating it ravenously... it seems to be eating it just like any other food, so I don't know if it likes it or not.
While I am giving inarizushi to Muu, Hiuri finally arrives. And her face is already red.

“Umm, Hiuri, good evening.”
“Yes... good evening...”

Her face is bright red. Eh, isn't that what the real life Hiuri decided, and also what the dream Hiuri wanted?

“Phew... that was surprising. I didn't expect myself to hug you...”
“Didn't Hiuri guide her?”
“What I guided her to do was to have a more intimate conversation with Kazuki-kun.”

Is that so?... Well, what she can do from the dream is only the thought guidance, so it often doesn't work as she expected.
That said, I was also surprised, and it was the first time Hiuri had come to my house, so my heart was pounding.

“And what about you hugging me in the dream?”
“That's partly because I just wanted to hug you... but also because if I flirted with Kazuki-kun in the dream like that, the me in real life would be conscious of Kazuki-kun, won’t she? Then she'd want to talk to you, so by having the people around me keep me in check, my desire would be increased.”

Hiuri’s purpose of increasing her desire has probably been achieved.
However, it probably meant that Hiuri's desire was higher than she expected. Even though it's not even the nearest bus stop, for her to get off near my house and come there, that’s a big deal.

“Hey, it’s okay if you confess to me now, you know?”
“Eh?”
“You saw that today, didn't you? She will definitely accept.”

Hiuri said that with a confident tone of voice.
Certainly, she wouldn’t hug me if she didn't like me... If we become lovers, I can do a lot of things with Hiuri in real life...

“Ara, you aren't going to confess?”
“I’m kind of scared.”
“Even though we became lovers quite lightheartedly in the dream?”

When we became lovers, Hiuri in the dream's likeability was very high. We were playing and chattering like friends, so the time I spent with her was many times longer than with Hiuri in real life.
I don't know if Hiuri in real life's likability is that high right now.

“What? You don't have to be afraid.”
“Now that we've become lovers like this, it's even more scary.”

The damage I’d get when I get rejected would definitely be greater than it would be back then.
At that time, I understood that Hiuri was an unattainable flower and that she was not the type of person who would go out with me even if I confessed my feelings to her. That's why, now that I know that there is a possibility that we could become lovers, the shock of being rejected would be even stronger.

Boys are creatures that struggle with the fear of being rejected like this.

“If you get rejected, I'll comfort you.”
“Why do I have to be comforted by the person who rejected me...”
“But I’m the only one here, right?”

Well, that's true.

“You can call out to me whenever you like.”
“Hmmm...”
“Or maybe I should be the one who confesses to you? If I recall correctly, in the dream, Kazuki-kun was the one who brought up that topic.”

When we became lovers in a dream, I was the one who brought up the topic of lovers.
It wasn't that I wanted to confess or anything, I just wanted to know why Hiuri kept refusing confessions.

The responses I got were things like it was because they only looked at her appearance, or because she didn't know the person at all...

“Back then I said that if it were you, we could be lovers.”
“Yeah. As you’d expect, I was really surprised.”
“After all, we've been together this long, and we know a lot of things about each other, that means we’ve gotten past all my conditions for refusing the confession.”

That's why somehow I said ‘let’s become lovers’. I never thought we’d actually have a relationship like this, but we both accepted that this was just something that happened in a dream.

“But doesn’t the real me don’t meet those conditions?”
"Well, I guess so. Compared to Rinrin and the others, we spend less time together, and I haven't talked that much about myself yet...”

That’s hopeless, isn’t it? Aren't those conditions a prerequisite?

“It’ll be fine!”
“How!?”
“Because, otherwise she wouldn't hug you. No matter how many times I hug you in the dream, the reason she wants to hug you in real life is obviously because she likes Kazuki-kun.”

I don't know why, but Hiuri in the dream sometimes talks about her real life self as if she was someone else.
Hiuri herself is probably playing it safe because she doesn't know what Hiuri in real life will decide, but that's what makes me scared.

“Well, there's no need to rush.” (Hiuri)
“Ye, yeah.”

Hiuri said that in a gentle tone of voice. Muu on my feet also cries as if in agreement.

I manage to regain my composure and am about to hand Hiuri the dessert as usual, when she absent-mindedly mutters.

“But I want to go on a Christmas date or something...”

Setting a deadline is unfair!

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