new song and video: "another way" (Patreon)

friends friends friends, hello!! things are feeling pretty nutso over here, but in a good way. feels like a frantic/exciting/overwhelming final push to an unknown and rapidly approaching finish line... that is also a starting line?? the closer we get to a baby being here the less any of this makes sense. it's all too big and too mysterious and too mind-blowing to comprehend.

i've been finishing up final preparations for the album release--i think we're actually gonna pull this off!! it may be a while before i'm able to make physical cds or vinyl available, but the plan is to do that down the road. 

on the baby front, we finally have a crib built! i can't tell you how surreal it is to see it in our house--in the room we dreamed of putting a baby in for 5 years, in the room that eventually got filled with junk and closed off from the rest of the house, in the room that we cleared out to turn into a sacred space for my injections when we started IVF almost 2 years ago. 

in other news--a new song and video is here! meet "another way" if you haven't yet! i wrote some words about it that i shared on social media this morning. they are below :) i've also attached the mp3 download to this message for your listening pleasure! (it's also on spotify, apple, all the other places!)

sending so so so much love and gratitude your way <3

xo

kina

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if there's one thing life has taught me time and time again, it's that things rarely go to plan. and if there's a second thing life has taught me, it's that when i kick and scream and resist what has happened, i just end up generating more pain for myself.⁣

... okay and if there's a THIRD thing life has taught me, it's that more often than not, after a little time and space and acceptance, i manage to find a lot of beauty and learnings and unexpectedly wonderful things that would not have otherwise existed if things had gone according to my original (and completely made up) plan.⁣

there's no spinning that so many of life's events are just unbearably unfair and painful and heartbreaking. but if this is how the cards have fallen, how much energy might we waste fruitlessly resisting what has come to pass and wishing it away? the more i have learned to surrender to the unfolding of things, allowing myself to feel that pain and heartache fully, while trying to find a way to move forward WITH it, as opposed to living in a perpetual state of resistance/anger/sadness/resentment, the more i have found some level of peace, and the more i have been able to see the beauty that does still exist in every moment. this of course doesn't mean we passively accept the way things are--if there is something to be DONE about things, we should by all means DO it!! but there's definitely something to be gained by learning to differentiate between the times where we can do something about it and the times we can't.⁣

so now, when life laughs at my little human plans and throws something else my way, i try to soften. i honor my pain, and hold out hope that there may someday be beauty and growth and magic born from this very moment. who am i to presume to know the way things *should* go.⁣

⁣this is what my new song, “another way”, is all about. i hope it resonates with you somehow <3

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Another Way Lyrics

How would you know if what you’re needing

Isn’t something you’re not seeing

What if you lost the chance to be what you could be

How would you know that something better

Wasn’t waiting for bad weather

To soak its seeds, to give you everything you need

We have a habit of

Thinking we know the way it goes

Then it goes another way

I know the latter is not a laughing matter

But it seems we’d be crazy not to think

That maybe this could be

Exactly what should be

How would you know if someone wiser

Wasn’t forging in these fires

What if you’d washed away what could’ve set you free

How would you know if you’ve mistaken

When your heart is bruised and aching

For a bad thing when all you needed was to bleed

We have a habit of

Thinking we know the way it goes

Then it goes another way

I know the latter is not a laughing matter

But it seems we’d be crazy not to think

That maybe this could be

Exactly what should be

What if we choose that we’ll let go of

All the things we’ve no control of

What if we learn to love whatever comes to be