Kina Diaries: Songs and songs and songs... (Patreon)

The last 5 days have been such a strange and lovely blur.

Last week I was finishing up producing and mixing "Birdsong" (the next song on the album). It was a labor of love. Excitement and confusion and total loss of direction and many moments of nearly losing my mind. On Friday morning I sat down to give my "final" mix a last listen before I turned it in, and 20 mixes and 8 hours later I was finally done. I was reminded of why most people pass off the job of mixing (and often producing) to other people (potential to lose one's mind), but still I wouldn't have had it any other way. The second it was finished and uploaded to the distribution site, I was filled with joy and relief and accomplishment and excitement that yet another song was ready to go have its own life out in the world.

On Saturday, Jesse and I set out to do some location scouting for the music video. I'd had a (complicated and logistically challenging) vision of what it should be, but the closer we got to needing to execute it, the more it felt like every fiber of my being was screaming NO!! By the time we got to the location, we had talked ourselves out of the idea altogether and discovered a much simpler and more fitting idea. One that excited me versus filled me with stress and dread. Sometimes our bodies know what's up! 

The stress of finishing "Birdsong" in time and knowing I had a giant crazy music video to shoot and edit in a week had been wearing on me, and now with most of that behind me and/or eliminated, I felt SO LIGHT. I intended to go home and spend the rest of the weekend doing absolutely nothing... but then I had this little creeping feeling, like "hey Kina... if you tried to finish that one song you started 9 years ago right now... i bet you could do it." This is a crazy thought for me because 1. I have a track record of almost none for finishing unfinished songs, and 2. I've tried to return to this song many times over the years, and had zero luck. But as it turned out, I tried, and the song was complete within an hour. *INSERT GIANT CELEBRATION HERE*

But that wasn't it, because the next day came around and out of nowhere I feel that feeling again, like "hey Kina... portal is open. Try to finish more songs!" And so I did, first one and then another, and OH MY GOSH MAKING MUSIC IS SO EXCITING AND MAGICAL!!!

I spent most of yesterday singing my brand new song babies and getting to know them better and it's been awesome. Today I started laying one down in the studio. It's called "History". :)

Ok, that was a lot. Basically, thank you and I love you for allowing me the time and space to be able to create music. It is the best feeling.

So much love, and AHH get ready to meet "Birdsong" this Friday!

xo

Kina

p.s. If you joined KG Records for the Online Concert and were planning on cancelling after the show, be sure to do so before Friday (though we'd love to keep you in the family if you want to stay!) <3