There's always that month (Patreon)

This is mundane, but you can just go down thru it at the bottom for tl;dr

Not the first time, nor second, there's always that month where I was ded entirely. This is even before I make the page, but to make thing simple, when I was alive and well, and annoyingly put my stuff constantly with uncanny timing every clock, nobody bats on that and feel uncomfortable on it being stupidly bothering to their mind, on how is that normal. Altho there's people who actually also done that aside from me I assure, but prolly on better caliber.

Aside from that, me just gone for days, and then extend to weeks of my ded bed, my "activity" got words on. Eventho I did much, or atleast less alot than everyday on the clock trying to put up with everything in the past, nothing get counts on. My activity doesn't get look over, but that's not the whole ordeal, I'm not saying that its bad, but then again, that's not the whole point of my activity too. Regardless if I do too much stuff and putting them up in a day, heck, just do them, just do whatever I want, active as that, you can also why not just schedule them, I really am a dumbo on that part, there's scheduled posting can be use as setup. But evenso, I felt like, Im just catching up with times instead of just focusing on my stuff

I hate that I always make rant, eventho its not a rant, but sounds like it had to be one. I just have too much in thought. Aside from that, even a speck of problems or things that bothering me by bit, it will haunt me and grow on me to the point spiraling down. I have these thought at the back of my head of things about the thinking of others, its always there, when I had that all the time and stress about it, those thing are not exist. But when I decided to just, release the thought and don't think about it, its always, and always happened, the thing that Im afraid of what others think about.

For instance, my activeness, yes, its not normal for me not being active for awhile, then again, when Im active for awhile and on the clock everytime, nothing gets out of it, nor words about how weird that is, just a day gone, and words gets out for me not being alive. While both of it have the same level of problem, its all ended with me in the end. For being having all these stuff going on and trying to execute them in matters of a day, instead of just take it back, and just sit for awhile, do it slowly. I know that's just me being annoying with how I do my stuff, but its just me in the end trying to always keep up with time. Instead of properly focus on doing my work, solely, focus on my work, and not focus on time.

Annoying as this is, if you guys still have guts for next month on staying here, I won't stop you, but I did not say I won't be doing my stuff as usual, I'm on rehab and recover for now. I'll be trying to put up my work again/resume with it both here and my titter. Im sorry again for the letdown, I did not properly show my full power. Joke as that sound, its true, I wish I have that like I did last month. Or so

To those who solely focus on my "in-activeness" and make words out of it, where were you when I was alive and annoyingly bothering people with putting up my stuff constantly? Why that does not get words out of you? Not trying to make it like bad or anything toward the party, but it always in my head on where's these people when I "did" those? Did they think otherwise? Or would they even counted that and think about my "activeness"?

tl;dr: just stay safe out there, I'm resuming with my stuff, be it slow, or instant post of multiples stuff in single day and wasted the other work to be able to be put up for another day, I'll take this as my rehab, I will take it more easy, for real this time, simple stuff and don't make it super fancy, sorry to disappoint you guys for not properly putting up with my work, and the stupid "rant"