how's life in America? (Patreon)

the question everyone asks.

the truth is, I have been slow to share my life here for several reasons. one is simply the fact that I've been very busy building a new life in a new place. it's one thing to become accustomed to living in a new area - it's another thing to figure out how to get things up and running smoothly enough to be able to vlog. for the longest time, there has been nothing at all to show - near empty apartment, not a lot of stuff to see or talk about - and even if I did film a little bit of footage, I never continued and it made no sense to share a two minute, isolated clip about something completely inconsequential. 

over time, though, I have been collecting footage to try and craft into cohesive videos. this is the first one I've managed to put together because something interesting actually happened for once in Missouri. witnessed our first arrest! I feel so much more American already. I guess it helps that I just submitted a petition to remove the time limit on my green card which will be filed through our law firm again 💸 and it won't be too much longer until I can apply for citizenship which I absolutely plan on doing. not really for any reason other than breaking all physical ties to the place that has damaged me so much I am still dealing with the aftermath of a lifetime of emotional and narcissistic abuse. you couldn't pay me to go back. 

I've been loving carving out my domain in a place that loves and welcomes me. I love being able to go outside and not be treated like I'm offending or inconveniencing everyone around me by existing. still looking like an occult slut (what I consider to be attractive) but here, no one cares! no one... except for white christian moms at target. I look forward to going to target just to be able to scare the shit out of people who can't tell the difference between dark and evil. (jk they have the only body wash I can stand to smell)

more about what I've been up to in the vlog! 

⛥ and if you want to make the same brownies I'm making in the video, I've adapted this recipe to create the ultimate death by chocolate brownies. I cut each brownie into 12 rectangles and still could not manage to eat a whole piece by myself (but my friend polished off all of hers cause she fit!) ⛥