⛥ May Q&A (Patreon)

It's 1 in the morning. I'm drinking leftover coffee from the day before. The cat just came to join me, confused why I'm not in bed like her other servant. Her cute little paws trample over my bunched up curtain and I reach to hide the needle from a curious animal. I'm hand sewing my own curtain, complete with lace trim. I'm no seamstress by any means - the stitching is as messy and crooked as the cut fabric - but as someone with very specific tastes, it's a hell of a lot easier to make my own stuff than to find something just perfect for sale. I got the fabric on sale at Joanne's and the sheer mesh leaf pattern tickles my aesthetic bone. Everyone looks to flowers for design inspiration, but people so often neglect leaves. They're not shiny, flashy or colorful. They don't catch your eye. They're just leaves! But lush greenery is something I will never tire of. The elegant curves of leaves have a timeless quality to them. Subtle, enchanting and easily overlooked. They're kind of balanced in that way. Ornate enough to be interesting, yet unassuming enough to blend.

By now the cat has convinced me it's play time and who am I to disagree. When meowing doesn't get her the attention she wants, she sits on the steps and stares intently until we notice her. She capitalizes on the fact that we assume she wants fresh tap water when she does that, but then she does us a bamboozle and runs to her toys. A clever one, she is. What she wants, she gets. 

The lace trim is now attached, but the loops will be a project for another night. Since we haven't been able to find a curtain rod I like, a sanded cedar branch will have to do - foraged from a nearby park even! And soon enough, home will feel just that little bit more homey.

But now on to what you're here for. Your fabulous questions! You guys just never disappoint.  Thank you for coming up with so much stuff to ask. 

Can you name a few of your favorite series on Netflix? Sure! Now, depending on where you live you may need a VPN to be able to see some of these, but here's a list of series I enjoyed off the top of my head: Orphan Black, Supernatural, iZombie, Ozark, Lucifer, Altered Carbon, Haunted Latin America, Haunting of Bly Manor, Sweet Home, Stranger Things, Santa Clarita Diet, Travelers, 3%, Better Than Us, Umbrella Academy, Invisible City, Diablero, October Faction, Alice in Borderland, Paranormal, The Alienist, Penny Dreadful.

Have you watched a bit of Fry and Laurie? Never heard of it. 

Has Jack always been a morning person? No, his sleep schedule usually follows his work schedule. Even though he works from home and makes his own hours. So at this point his sleep schedule follows the cat's schedule, who likes to wake up at the ass crack of dawn for playtime. 

I’ve been trying to find out for a While what triggers my Anxiety/panic attacks and I was wondering if you have any advice if you don’t mind me asking? Keep a journal, Everytime you feel an anxiety attack coming on, write down what you were doing right before that, what you were thinking about and how you were feeling. May also be useful to write down where and when it occurred. Over time you may be able to make a connection. Something more immediate would be asking yourself why you feel the way you feel right now and reflecting everytime it happens - but this takes practice. If you do this long enough, you'll be able to recognize how you feel more easily and maybe even avoid situations that trigger your anxiety. 

I am 100.00% convinced that life is a Video game/Dream/illusion, What do you think? I don't have a clue but I'm not discrediting the idea. The one thing I reliably have to go by is visual snow syndrome. You know that colorful static on the TV? I see that all the time, everywhere. So looking around and seeing the same static you see in a TV screen all around me, kinda makes it feel like it could all be a simulation. I actually spent some time with the same thought in my teens, but I was told feeling that way was a mental disorder so... 

Have you and Jack managed to find any cat cafés or cat shelters in Missouri? We have visited a local cat cafe so far. We called the humane society who let us know they aren't open to the public but will accept donations for food banks. We are also considering calling other shelters to see if they need help in the form of cat food to maybe distribute the donations a little more. I hope with covid numbers dropping like an old koala from a tree top (Planet Zoo reference) things will open up again so we can get to know the people who take care of the animals.

What's your favorite sport/game to play and to watch? I don't like watching sports - just never saw the appeal. In fact, I find it dreadfully boring. But I enjoy a casual game of badminton, volleyball which to me is like a competitive version of don't let the balloon touch the ground, and swimming.

Are you all settled in now? It was a rather long and arduous relocation process. How are you both feeling now that you've made it through all the hassle and have had time to rest & decompress? Much more calm and obviously happy to have each other. Settling in can't be rushed and I'm happy to be living in a place that is so peaceful and friendly. Truth be told, the worst part was over the moment I arrived in this house. The long trip, the long wait, all the money and paperwork we had to put in - all worth it in the end. That being said, we're both getting back into our usual grind with me unable to stop working once I start and us both getting used to places. Mundane things, making that cash money, hunting for furniture, splitting chores - all things that have taken over our everyday now that all is no longer new and fresh. I'm back to a mostly nocturnal schedule, having had to stay up filming so many nights in a row. But I'm sure my body will continue to try to orient itself after the sun the minute I finish my next video... Up until it is time to start another. 

Any new favorite discoveries in terms of food, sights, and hobbies since arriving in the US? And did you two end up trying Royce Nama chocolate yet? As expected, I really like chicken and waffles. 

Why is the supernatural always exponentially more powerful than “the natural?” Good question. From my viewpoint, there's no real reason to distinguish the two in the sense that one is "normal" and "common" and the other one "mysterious" and "occult". When it comes down to it, everything in existence is natural - or it wouldn't exist. The way things are is just the way things are and one is not more special than the other. That being said, I believe what people refer to as the "natural", 3D reality is just the tippy tip of the giant iceberg of nature. The rest includes dimensions, energies, entities we can't see but still have manifesting power. The things commonly referred to as "supernatural". My idea would be what I just mentioned - 3D reality is the tiny tippy tip of all that exists and there's proportionally a lot more life force that is invisible to us, that influences us and makes up the greater universe. More life force = more manifesting power. 

Will I find love? I believe every human on Earth has the potential to find love. The better question is, what's standing in the way of that? I often observe humans who are oblivious to all the ways in which they block their own potential for love. Might be good to ask yourself what that thing is for you personally. Are you out of touch? Do you hate yourself? Is no one ever good enough for you? Are you closing yourself off from people emotionally for fear of being judged? Do you resist life? (If you feel the need to control circumstances that's a good indicator.) Are you incapable of perceiving another person for who they are? Do you actively avoid people? Are you oblivious to others' advances towards you? Do you have relationship trauma? Do you fear people? Do you not know what love feels like? There are almost 8 billion people on this planet at this time. The odds are in your favor. Statistically it's way more likely that at least 1/8,000,000,000 is capable of loving you and you're capable of loving at least 1/8,000,000,000.

What animals have you encountered since moving to the states you have never seen in Europe? So far, raccoons, opossums, cardinals, black horse flies (ours are grey/tan), blue jays and those grey squirrels that don't give a shit how close you are. In Germany I've only ever seen the red and black ones. 

Does Ash have any playmates, inanimate or otherwise? Ash literally doesn't like anybody except us. Whenever she spots another cat outside she'll growl and swat at the window.

If you were a doctor which field would you rather like to practice? Psychology. I get off on analyzing people's behaviors and diving deep into their minds.

Which of the following would you rather choose to have as an ally? A vampire, werewolf or a necromancer? A werewolf? Idk I like dogs.

Are you interested in tarot reading? Yes, I casually read tarot every day. So much so that tarot sometimes won't even tell me shit because apparently I need to learn to trust my intuition. 

Have you ever fashioned your own wand? Yes, I have a couple wands that are yet unfinished because I'm simply lacking inspiration. Might have to go crystal shopping again soon.

Do you ever feel like you were born in a different time? Let’s say for instance the 17th or 18th century? I can't say I feel that way about any time. The closest thing I feel is nostalgia for lifetimes I don't remember living and maybe the feeling that I simply do not belong in this society, compounded by how everything feels strange and awkward - I analyze social expectations like I'm not even a member of the same species as everyone else. So many things just do not make any sense to me. Why is it rude to say one thing but not another? Why does everybody act so odd yet seem to think this is normal? Why people? How live? Maybe I don't belong in society or maybe my lack of early childhood socialization left me an outsider looking in, hesitantly reaching for something I can never have. But at the same time there's no "other" - no time and no place where I think I would perform really well. Perhaps for a lack of experience. But perhaps, everyone else feels the same way, too. After all, here and now is the pinnacle of our experience - everywhere around us are things never before seen, never before invented. Maybe life simply does not possess familiarity... For it is something we have not yet experienced.  

Does Ash ever like to drink water from a glass? I've only ever seen her do it once, while Jack was asleep. She usually just meows at us to turn the faucet on. 

Which of the tiers on your Patreon page did you create first? I created them all  on the same day - in the order they are shown. So I guess the Extra tier was the first I created. 

Which of King Arthur’s knights was the best and why? I don't know. Never made it around to that story. 

If Americans call Deutschland Germany, do Germans have a different name for the USA? We just say Amerika. And funny enough, Germans fucking love American culture. It's become a way to sell cheap convenience foods and put corn and beans on stuff. Hot dogs? AMERICAN hot dogs.

Thick crust pizza? AMERICAN pizza. 

Corn on pepperoni pizza? WESTERN.

Frozen onion rings? AMERICAN onion rings. 

BBQ anything? WESTERN STYLE! 

Large loaves of cheap white bread? AMERICAN sandwich! 

Yes that was cheese slices on the hot dogs and yes they are better with cheese. Try it!

Do you think Empress Matilda was robbed of her rightful claim to the English throne? Idk, I wasn't there. 

Have you read Prinzessin Insomnia by Walter Moers? The main character looks a lot like you. Never heard of it. Can I see a picture? 

With that, I hope you enjoyed the read and I'm very much looking forward to more of your questions. You will find them here shortly - hit me with your best ones. Cheers!