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Imagine entering a mystical realm... Faint music and incense burning steadily while your eyes feast on warm colors of orange and amber... An enchantress sits before you - equally earthly and ethereal - as she guides you into a state of deep, tranquil relaxation. Her gaze, her hand movements... You feel yourself slipping into a trance... The way she touches you and softly whispers into your ears... You're weightless... Your body under her spell... A spell of deep calmness and restorative sleep. 

Fucking Christ, it's so hard to focus on writing while your neighbors howl and stomp around like they're the only people on the fucking planet. I've been desperately trying not to overload from the noise ever since I woke up. 

The first video of December will be somewhat of a mystical journey - more than a simple guided relaxation or even personal attention ASMR, it has quite the... New-agey vibe... I'm living for it because of all the unexplored possibilities in that realm. When I look at it in my mind's eye, I can see so many images and ideas waiting for someone to make them real. To marry the stars with the earth in the pursuit of art and wonder and beauty. 

It's already done but, you know, the rendering and uploading will take at least a few more days. I already rendered one version but I found the music a notch too loud so I changed it and am hoping for the best. Like I said, I never really know until I hear the finished video how the channels are going to blend. But it since it's "only" 23 minutes, it "only" takes about 8 hours to render. Though, since it's "only" 23 minutes, I'm making a longer one where I loop incense sounds and backdrop at the end to take it up to an hour. Some people just can't fall asleep in 20 minutes. And it wouldn't be my channel if I didn't go all out. I hope you can be patient for all the versions to process before I publish it. Short with music, short without music, long with music, long without music. Sometimes I wonder if anyone even appreciates  the alternative videos. They don't get very many views unless I make them all public, but then that's considered spam and people get mad anyway. I want to reward people for paying attention, so I prefer to publish one main "face" of the video and link everything else in the description and/or pinned comment. That way it's less offensive and everyone can still get what they're asking for if they go looking for it. But if you scroll down ignoring both the description box AND the pinned comment by yours truly to post a comment saying you wish this video didn't have music, I just can't help you. Lol this happened recently and I don't think it's possible to go out of my way more than I do for these videos. My power only goes so far. 

It's taken me like two hours to write this post omg someone please just fucking kill this obnoxious waste of carbon molecules I can't fucking focus on anything sadjfakfjjdfkjld

I am unable to continue thinking much less writing cya