⛥June Q&A⛥ (Patreon)

The spam continues! I just got done running errands and hand washing my laundry which is currently soaking in a tub of scalding hot water to remove the detergent and by now my neighbor's brats are awake and stomping around like the tiny abominations they are so I'm doing this until exhaustion kicks in. In about 2 hours Jack will wake up and I don't know if it's worth it to try to sleep. I do enjoy your questions, as always, even though it's been rather quiet on Patreon lately. Where is everybody? I did expect the questions to simmer down after a while because there comes a time when everything is said and done and I overshared to the point of no one being able to think of anything more they'd want to know. Lol sorry I'm boring. I will still try to make the answers as lengthy and interesting as possible, even with fewer questions. This month we have...

Can you speak any other languages? I'm fluent in English and German but I hate speaking German and avoid it whenever I can. I can understand Russian but I can't and don't speak it. Don't tell the Russians, they're gonna try to claim me again and many of them get all uppity about my lack of interest in the language, heritage or anything to do with my birth country. I never did understand the exaggerated patriotism as I don't particularly feel like a place I've only had negative experiences with should define me. Ask me about those experiences here if you want, I don't mind. I also know a little Japanese from watching too damn much anime and Japan vlogs but I'm too embarrassed to speak it. My mother used to be dead set on having me become a language correspondent because apparently that's the only "useful" talent I have. The only problem? I don't give enough fucks to speak anything other than English. I'm just kidding, ADHD and dissociation are pretty noteworthy problems, too. 

And what country do you live in? I live in Germany though I'm trying really hard not to

3 completely random facts? You asked for it: 1) Cacao is the single best source of zinc and magnesium. Eat yo chocolate, peoples. 2) Sai is fluent in Latin. 3) Box hair dye is super damaging for your hair because companies care about delivering the color shown on the packaging and put peroxide and shit into the developer to make sure that the color sticks even on the thickest, unporous hair, at the expense of burning all your hair off your damn head. I wasn't sure if you meant 3 random facts about me, but I enjoy talking about myself so have 3 more anyway: 1) Wearing red makes me look a lot paler than I am. 2) I hate closed doors. I never close doors that don't need to be closed. I can't sleep with closed doors. I have to be able to see/hear what's on the other side, otherwise cue the anxiety attacks. 3) I went through a phase not long ago where I was just terrified of someone breaking into my home. Clearly aftershocks of a lifetime of boundary violation that was surfacing in order to be integrated. I knew it was unlikely. I knew nothing ever happens here. But it had me on edge for the longest time. My paranoia doesn't give a shit how unlikely something is because unlikely things have happened to me and hurt me so if my brain sees any potential for anyone to hurt me in any way, it just can't rest. 

Do you know about pen and paper role playing games (like DnD/Dungeons and Dragons)? If so, what are your thoughts on it and have you ever played one? I've heard about it but never played any. The only times I hear about it is when my best friend tells me about board game nights with her family which makes me unreasonably envious because I want a family who play fun games with me or even do anything together/with me beyond tolerating each other and dragging me along to their social gatherings where I'm so neglected, ignored and invisible I may aswell not be there at all because my presence is clearly not desired, ever. So yeah, coming from a background where all life I basically had to beg the people closest to me to give me attention for like 5 seconds, knowing that DnD is a thing that people do with people they actually like makes me wish for a life I could never have had. Because now I know what I'm missing and it hurts.
 

Maybe Jack will play with me and I finally get to feel wanted lol. I can't wait to see him again and meet his cat. She's a total Gemini and I hope she'll like me. Thank you for posting your questions and I'm sorry this post came out a little shorter than the previous ones. I hope you liked it anyway and look forward to the July questions! Cheers