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Today I finished the first take of my upcoming mystery video. I also promptly realized why I haven't felt like filming anything lately. I still tried today and my brain is so overloaded I'm struggling to function. I'm writing because writing helps me process, along with playing games. In moments like this I need some easy activity to be barely normal again. I feel bad because Jack asks me what I want to do or watch but I can't even make any decisions. Does anybody else here have this? The overwhelmed feeling when you're ready to cry if you have to think one more thought. 

I'll look at the footage later, due to errands and stuff my sleep schedule has shifted again and I can't get sleepy until afternoon. Though I don't feel like it's good enough so I already decided I won't edit any of it and just do it over tomorrow night. I have this magical talent of always looking fine even when I'm not fine so it would probably turn out ok, but I don't settle for ok. It wasn't my best and I need to improve my story. 

While I was thinking and coming up with a plot, it got very complicated and there might be 2-3 parts to this. And then my strobe lights broke. Shame, they were my favorite. I have backup but this detail just dropped the quality so low that I decided it's not worth it. I just wish my neighbor would stop watching TV all night. My window for filming a video in total quiet is just getting narrower and narrower. With this stupid TV on it's now midnight until about 1:30AM. 

Two things that are steadily progressing are my Sims 3 neighborhood and my move. I wish I could show you but my laptop can't handle the game and recording the game at the same time. It lags and it's awful. Maybe someday. The other night I made my first tuning mod because I had a problem that no one else had solved yet. I made Garnet sim a beautiful bayview dive bar (we argued about the chairs and bartender uniform) but when it came to playing in it, all the food served was bad and I wasn't having that. So I dug up a wiki tutorial on tuning mods and changed all the food quality and some other things. The first one made it so that no food or drinks were available to order in any bars in town so I made another one just reducing it to food quality and it works great. The other thing I found out was that most of the random crashing was likely caused by a way oversized and overstuffed lot I made once. It was almost a whole entire underground city on just one lot and I couldn't even place it in a new town without windows getting twisted 45 degrees and floors getting deleted when I tried to move plants back to the indoor garden... How the savage pansies thing happened. Jack said the flowers were holding the floors down and I said, the flowers are holding raw concrete down? That's a savage breed of pansies. Let me know if you want screenshots, I can probably make that happen somehow. 

Tomorrow night I'll try the whole video thing again which is at least a couple hours just shooting so good luck to me. I'm gonna get some exercise so I can sleep soon. 

//Ally