the pursuit of ambience (Patreon)

The other day I took my equipment out on a "field trip". It was a very windy day and I wanted to see if I could capture the sound of the wind somehow. Surprisingly, the outside was absolutely inhospitable that day - and my recorder thought so, too. The result was as expected (27 minutes of mic popping) and the video came out just as poor. No, the wind didn't knock over my tripod as I had feared. It was getting dark and my camera is totally blind in low light. So I scrapped the project. 

Hi, how are you doing today? Things are finally picking up here, things that aren't work related at least. I'm starting to feel more stable despite the persistent ice age here in Germany. Maybe I'm "getting old" but I hope it's that because that means it's permanent. Who doesn't want that?! Permanent peace of mind! And not the ultra spiritual "I'm pretending to be above all worldly things but I'm really just dissociating from my emotions" kind of make-believe crap, just the gradual feeling of settling inside your own skin and everything seeming less dramatic and not having to fight everything all the time. Fascinating improvement. 

As for the work part, I have videos planned - in fact, I was going to work on a recording today, but my neighbor had his TV on just stupid loud all night and it was really noisy. Lol, how's that for an excuse? "Sorry, I can't work tonight, my neighbor is watching TV stupid loud" ... I can't be the only one amused at how this would sound in any other profession. The next thing coming out will likely be, if my neighbor so happens to go to sleep at an appropriate time, a hypnotherapist roleplay. I want to give you guys an exquisit hypnosis session for a healthy body and healthy mind. This is what I'm working on personally at the moment so that's for my inspiration. It'll be another one of those audio only with a dynamic background scenery videos which is fantastic cause I can do close up stuff that way. And I have to kill less time and nerves doing makeup and shit. Don't worry, my face will be back soon enough, I have a ton of shit to pick up, some of which for another video, on my appointment this week. That includes hair dye and of course I'm gonna wanna show off my fresh look. Get ready for a mystery video giveaway post soon!

My true passion, which is creating ambience, is still haunting me. I get so excited when I get to create and/or capture a beautiful moment and share it with the world. It just fascinates me so much how with technology we have so much more control in creating an environment! A lot of us hate where we live for one reason or another, but even if we can't afford to leave, we're not completely stuck. Sometimes, when I need a change of scenery, I find myself a nice ambience background to play on full screen, light some candles, change the colored lights, and it creates a whole different feeling and a whole different outlook on life. Things around us really influence us and we have more options than ever to fix things around us even in very small ways. I've always loved this and always wanted to contribute to this very thing. Setting the mood, energy work, share beauty so inspiring that you can't look at the world through the same eyes you used to again. Jack teases me about all my gasms. I have foodgasms and beautygasms. I just can't control myself around extraordinarily delicious and exquisitly beautiful things. I really want to make people feel what I feel when something is just so beautiful and perfect in itself that it puts you in an instant state of peace, like a hole inside you has been filled - no pun intended. But more broadly, I want to make people feel things, specific things, complex feelings, that can't be achieved with just words or just an image. I want to do it with my voice and with video and audio. This is the pure essence of [Esc] reality. My lifelong quest will be this. 

So yeah, just wanted to let you know I haven't forgotten about you ;) I'm usually really trying to be consistent with my videos and hate when I can't control noise. I've always wanted a studio for that reason, but the first and most important thing is getting my hot ass on a plane to the other end of the world where the love of my life is waiting for me (and the red tape).

Cheers

//Ally