⛤ October Q&A (Patreon)

halloween has come and gone and things are going back to business as usual. or business as unusual if I have anything to do with it! because of how embarrassingly poorly this halloween season has gone, I declare that it will be extended until the winter solstice! costumes are encouraged, spooky vibes are required! if you must do mundane things, do them in an eccentric manner. this half-assery of all things fun and wild must be stopped! it is a national crisis that calls for your contribution. every individual must have as much fun as possible in protest of the dull and passionless agenda! your community counts on you! PSA over.

before I get ready and officially start the day though, I will answer the questions you posted this month!

What is the craziest book of scary stories you read? none of them are really all that scary, or maybe I just don't spook easily. but the best stories I've read are the ghost stories in ozark tales. I mostly like to listen to reddit stories of real scary/paranormal encounters though because the "true" stories are the only ones that give me chills!

Halloween movie picks? oh my, we've been through so many horror movies. there are so many movies, including cult classics, I had just never seen due to living in Germany. so this year we lined up movie marathons for like a week straight with anything, preferably pre Y2K, I had just never seen that's free to watch on prime video. we made a drinking game out of it where if we hate a movie within the first 20-25 minutes we have to take a shot and skip to the next one in line. my top picks for this season are The Craft which is a movie about a bunch of teenage girls using magic to torment their bullies and then each other, and also Stigmata but I was too distracted by the cinematography to pay attention to the plot. this movie is beautiful from start to finish, every scene is sublime and so is a young Patricia Arquette.

Do you feel compelled to usually make longer ASMR videos or do they just tend to end up longer? I like to take my time with each video and I'm sure that contributes to my work turning out exceedingly long sometimes. the single most important element of a relaxing video is pacing. contrary to most entertainment on youtube, which should be to the point and concise so as to not waste your time, relaxing videos and sleep videos are there to ground you by subjectively slowing down time and giving your mind a chance to rest. you never want to rush anything or induce stress in any way.

Any favorite cartoons? Daria.

What's your favorite horror movie? I didn't like any movie enough to consider it a favorite lol.

Which Winnie the Pooh character do you relate to the most? I've never seen winnie the pooh so I can't answer.

Favorite fall/winter comfort meal to cook? butternut squash soup (with fried sausage chunks)

Are you doing anything for Halloween? If so, what? I'm not. I live in a poor neighborhood and it's dangerous at night, so it's not like I'm even gonna get trick or treaters. we WERE going to do all kinds of things for halloween! first we were going to go to a haunted house, but they couldn't open all month due to electrical problems. then we were gonna go to the club, but they couldn't find enough people to work halloween night to be able to open. then we were gonna meet our friend at the cat cafe, but she bailed last minute. we ended up going to a spook easy and having yummy cocktails and then went home and ate charcuterie and played shitty horror movies in the background while hanging out with our darling kitty the rest of the night.

What is you favorite candy/s? I like pop rocks and also maltesers, could eat them by the bag. they are not the same as American malt balls, the brand name maltesers have more salt which is crucial for the flavor profile. also you can't go wrong with kinder chocolate, ever.

How do you feel about Onlyfans? OF rejected me so not positively! haha

Mental health update? I am assuming you feeling better about yourself? oh, I feel great about myself. I think that with the things I've had to deal with this year, the assumption is that I am in a bad place mentally, this is not the case. I am merely in a bad place financially. 2024 has brought a lot of unexpected financial strain relating to deaths in the family and mass layoffs and when you're low income to start with, every unforeseen bill is like a punch in the gut. that's the reason why I considered OF to start with, though I never intended to do sex work. a lot of people seemed worried about my ability to maintain my boundaries around that but I am a stubborn motherfucker so I don't think you could push me into a field I don't desire to be in if you tried. case in point: I've refused ads on my videos for 10 years straight. I've refused to half ass my videos for years and years. even though we're barely pulling through for now, I am still looking for avenues to generate additional income, since with the state of the economy right now many people don't have the disposable income to put towards non-essential expenses like donations. it's just how things are now and desperate times call for desperate measures. but through it all I've made incredible progress mentally and emotionally. I have learned that the feeling I thought was "control" actually equated to self-repression and have worked to break free from the limitations that were put on me a long time ago that have done nothing but suck the life out of me and bind my powers all this time. so in a paradoxical way, I feel less in control and more free and content at the same time. I've never appreciated life as much as I do now. all I want is to live a life full of fun and excitement and rest assured I will continue to serve impeccable vibes for years to come. even if I have to go out and get a real job at some point. I hope that clears up some misunderstandings I've seen propagated out there.

now I must go and wash remnants of orange face paint out of my ears. for more questions, see the november question dump that will be available shortly. happy day of the dead! may your autumn be spooky and temperate in weather. still, don't forget to drink water and wear sunscreen. UV radiation is not seasonal! 🍸