⛤ May Q&A (Patreon)

Wow, you hit me hard with questions this month. I don't even think I'm gonna waste any time talking about mundane shit to frame this post, because your inquiries are just too real this time. Am I qualified to answer some of these? Who knows? I am honored you think so highly of me regardless. Let's hit it

Have you suffered demon (djinn) possession and if so, how did you recover? I'm concerned for my friend and would like to assist him... I do not wish to discuss my personal experiences at this time, but if it's real possession and not a mental ailment, your friend needs an exorcist. and the more frequently the episodes happen, the more badly your friend needs an exorcist. christian or pagan or whoever you can find. someone with the authority and mental fortitude to expel an entity. I don't know your religion or spiritual background but this is a serious matter that should not be ignored or dealt with in an unskilled fashion. until you find someone who can perform an exorcism, you can protect your friend by drawing protective sigils on them and utilizing protective amulets. it helps if you know what entity you're dealing with exactly to pick a symbol that works on them. I've had great success with a simplified version of the vegvisir.

regular sea salt baths and smoke cleansing, vervain tea and st. john's wort will weaken the entity, but your friend must accept help. I wish I could send you my guardian spirit to take care of the entity, but he is bound to a pendant and I won't risk losing him. you can pray over your friend, the more people you can convince to pray with you, the more effective it will be. make your friend pray if they can. keep in mind that if the entity feels threatened, it will lash out. do not be discouraged when this happens, this is a good sign. what you're doing is working. protect yourself, aswell, so you don't end up with an attachment in their place. you also must be persistent. demons can sense when you're plotting to get rid of them and will do everything in their power to avoid letting that happen, which is especially frustrating if the host is so enmeshed with the entity that they cannot tell their own thoughts and feelings from a foreign influence. keep a strong mind and GET AN EXORCIST. good luck.

Thoughts on trying to interpret nightmares about the past? I usually chalk those up to the subconscious clearing out trauma from the system. similar to how I go through my SD cards to get rid of useless files, the mind goes through memories stored in the body to process and transmute them. at times, something in your waking life may have triggered similar feelings or patterns from the time period in question. for a more specific perspective, I would need to know the theme and a detailed example.

If there was a movie about you, which actress would you like to portray you? (and if Jack is also in the movie, which actor?) this is hard because there aren't any hollywood actresses that fit my vibe at all. though I do get compared to Helena Bonham Carter a lot. or do you think Winona Ryder might be better? lol. I don't even know a single native american actor by name for Jack. someone very beautiful for sure.

If you were in a band, what would be the band name and what instrument would you play? I'll let you know when I get a band! can I just sing? I don't really wanna play an instrument. definitely no flutes. aiming to be the next Enya.

Have you eaten at Waffle House? no but I want to. everyone keeps talking about how ghetto waffle house is and that you need to know how to fight to get hired there so I'm curious.

You have the choice: You are 6 years old again but you still have all the knowledge and experiences you've gathered over the years OR you have $40 Million. What ya taking? Easy. $40 million. you couldn't pay me enough to go back to being a helpless prisoner to my narcissistic mother. all the knowledge in the world can't reason with a narcissistic mother who blames you for all the shitty life choices she made, complains about how you're sucking the life out of her while actively keeping you dependent on her, denies you any and all privacy and autonomy, threatens you with the psych ward when you shut down to force you to "act normal", shits on anything that makes you happy, yells, guilts, threathens, punishes and sometimes hits you if you refuse to jump at her beck and call because you only exist to her if she needs you to do something for her, and then turns around and gaslights you about how you're the one abusing her kindness after she gave up her life to raise you. don't forget the enabling father who takes her side every time despite knowing how much of a dipshit she is! I'm not signing up to be abused like that again. also I don't have a single problem that having $40 million wouldn't instantly solve. 🤷‍♀️

What's your dream bakery scenario? I want to be the underground baker that you have to know someone who knows someone to get access to. I want to bake out of my home (would love a larger kitchen with more than 2 feet of counter space) and be recognized throughout town as the unofficially best confectioner far and wide. not someone who wins awards or pops up on google when you search 'bakery' but someone people tell their good friends about because the sweets are just that amazing. "did I just hear you say you want to get crumbl cookies?! no no no no, you have to get cookies from her, trust me you can't buy them like that anywhere"

Any good music recs? depends what you like. I like metal that's melodic and some goth and industrial rock. snake river conspiracy is always a winner. type o negative is a little niche in their later works but started out very punk. I love the romantic, sensual goth vibe. nightwish in the Tarja era is still my favorite, her leaving the band really stripped them of their unique appeal. lately I've been rocking out to the cranberries again. the song free to decide lives rent free in my head. a band that never got the recognition they deserved was the marchesa casati. you can only find a few of their songs on youtube but they are worth it.

Long time listener first time typer. Not really a question but just wanted to let you know my cat gets anxious sometimes and your videos calm her down. Thank you. poor kitty has anxiety! I'm glad I'm able to help soothe a little fuzzy meow meows. give her some chin scritchies for me!

Any relationship advice you can share? Whether it be in finding one, maintaining one, etc. there is a lot to unpack in this question. one thing I can say definitively is that your relationships and interactions with the people around you are a direct reflection of how comfortable you are with yourself. I'm not saying you have to love yourself before someone else can love you (factually false), but it helps tremendously to work on accepting yourself as a person, faults and all. in the past months I have become much less inhibited and have started to settle in myself and my life and as a result, have much less awkward and more fulfilling interactions with people. it helps to know that the things you are so worried about others judging in you are very likely just normal human things everybody struggles with. and if people do judge you for those things, they themselves are small minded dipshits who aren't capable of forming relationships. you may not be a saint but you're not the worst. being comfortable with who you are is the first step to finding and building meaningful relationships. the second step is to go where people are. small, intimate bars can be good places to just chat with people and get to know a stranger. how are others supposed to connect with you if they don't know you exist? go somewhere where you might bond with someone over a shared interest. don't expect too much. a little small talk with a stranger goes a long way in raising your confidence and comfort level. people like being around people who are comfortable. they can sense that they don't have to be on guard around someone who accepts themselves. if you have a sense of humor at all, for the love of god show it. even if you think your joke is dumb or won't land, you can't expect anyone to open up to you if you yourself aren't willing to be open about what you think. learn to be ok with cringe. not everyone will vibe with you, but in order to find your tribe you have to put out something. the thing with relationships is that they can't be forced. never make someone an obligation, never be an obligation to someone. shoot some shots with no expectation of anything in return and you may stumble into a good time. maybe something can develop from there. that's all I have to share.

I will post another question dump here shortly. thank you so much for reading this essay that took me 3 hours to write. it was fun despite the wear and tear on my brain trying to give useful advice lol. drink some water and wear your sunscreen 🍸