Regarding Commissions (Patreon)

My wife asked me why I hate doing commissions, and she suggested that, maybe it was because I didn’t like other people telling me how to do things.

At first, I wanted to just agree. I can’t say for sure why. Instead, I decided to be honest with her and say, “Because I never feel my art is good enough.”

I always feel like my work isn’t up to standard for commissions. I mean, I know it’s good, but I don’t feel individual pieces are ever GOOD ENOUGH.

It’s very stressful. It’s the reason I always ADD freebies to commissions. Because maybe I need to make up for how bad I really think it is.

My wife wanted to argue with me, to try and convince me of how good she believes I am and how she believes I need to resume commissions. I told her if she figures out a way to convince me to let me know: because I haven’t found a way yet after all this time.

BUT- I may consider opening commissions soon, but for now… I think I’d rather hear everyone’s thoughts. Again, the process has ALWAYS been very stressful for me. That’s why I hate it when people pay me in advance. “What if I can’t deliver?” And then something always happens.

Cheers. ❤️