In a stupid Hiatus (Patreon)

I'll be honest, I had to put myself back together to write this because recently I've been felt very down and very disappointed with myself. 

Stuff happened here (personal stuff) that left me in a standby status. Kinda of an impossible loop of procrastination, frustration, guilt, depression and the loop keeps rolling going nowhere. The thing that I try to say, even with my horrible English is, that I'm stuck in a state where I dunno how to get out off and because of that I hate myself. 

I'm in the need to explain it to you guys because I don't want to keep you holding with no updates or telling you what's going on. 

I hope you guys understand my situation and I want make you know that I'm doing my best to beat it.