Sudoku (Patreon)

I don't dwell much on it. It's nothing I can do about it to begin with, and whenever I'm with the lads or doing my work, that's the only thing that matters. What's right in front of me. That's who I am now. But seeing this little girl solving a sudoku all on her own really hurts. I can count to ten. I can write. I can see which numbers are missing in a square. The step to actually solving a sudoku feels so close, yet insurmountable. I mean, I know how to do it in principle. I used to love solving them. It's such a painful reminder of all the things I can't do anymore. All the things I can't be.