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There's something very strenghetning yet baring in changing your stance on matters as intimate as preferences. It doesn't come easily to admit it to yourself and even harder to explain it to others who used to know you as someone different. You may ask yourself: 

"Were the feelings i had before even true?"
"Will i be seen as a liar if i admit that i changed my mind?" 

Fear of being rejected because of the new ideology, preference or belief can be really crippling and it certainly was to Filip. First when he realized that he wasn't straight and the other time when started to gain more pleasure from gentler and softer treatment as a bottom. Yes, he still had a masochist strain in him, but the more time he spent with Patrick and more safe he felt with him, the more he enjoyed how much pleasure was hidden inside slow careful touch of his friend. Sometimes softness was a torture on it's own, made him frown as the pressure kept on building up. He never was the type to beg for something, but with Patrick he was catching himself on pleading for more in his mind as he kept on forcing down moans of pleasure.

Pat knew exactly what to do. He was naturally gifted in reading people and their needs. Tuning in was so easy to him. He kept on talking slowly as his hands explored Filip's body, looking for places of higher sensitivity, searching for poses that made Filip open up emotionally. The one and only goal to him was to make his friend feel the way he never felt before. Make him feel safe, read his moods, experiment on a small scale and unravel his real desires. 

So far he realized that Filip's childish bragging of how hard he fucked, how fast he did it, how loud a lady was moaning, was a way of impressing people. Making them think that he's an alpha, a person you don't want to make angry, someone who you should want to be. His comments were misogynistic, sometimes very filthy and annoying to Patrick, but the moment he realized that Filip had very skewed perspective on power and respect, everything changed. 

He could no longer be angry at him, on the contrary - he started to feel compassionate. There was definitely a way to correct his behaviour, make him understand that he could still be strong and respected yet treat himself and others with care and love. There was one other lesson to be learned, maybe even a greater one:

You can change your ways, you can change your mind.
Admitting you were wrong and changing is better than brewing in error and toxic fear of people changing their minds about you for worse.