May update and random photos/art (Patreon)

Before i get start uploading the may photo albums i just wanted to give an important life update.

If you happened to have not seen on social media i am in the process of moving anddddd it is not going well. This whole month was honestly really terrible, if i hadnt have had moments to go to the gym or take a brief walk outside I honestly dont know how i would have survived

I was supposed to have access to the new place sooner but HAD to get flooring redone because the carpet that literally covered every inch of the new place was moldy and disgusting. And everytime we thought the work would be done it would get pushed back and i kept getting stuck in a weird limbo.

Then my landlord started being rather unempatheic demanding that i clean my entire rental too to bottom and outside because he wanted to show the rental to new tenants mind you my lease isnt up until july. My place was a total wreck because ya know....moving and the fact ive been on intense back to back to back con schedule and havent had time to clean and unpack from those. It was a mess and thats all ive been doing. he would schedule something he wouldnt show up and then ask to enter the house on his own without any warning. I could go on and on to be quiet honest but this is already enough

In any case, every plan that i had this month got absolutely thrown out the window last minute due to other people.

And yeah, i do not do well with that shit. Ive been riddled with anxiety and depression. The worst ive seen in years. Its gotten so bad that im not even excited about moving much anymore. I dont have the drive to put things away nicely in their new spaces im just tired.

Ive been tired for a year, my old landlord kicking me out unexpectedly, to moving to a shit show where i couldnt unpack all my things and lived with most my work stuff in boxes, to trying to find a house to escape the rental to now what i thought would be an easy move....not being an easy move....yeah all within a year.

I havent been making what i want to make, havent been producing the quality i know im capable of, and i just want to be past that so badly!!!!!!

And now anime expo and other events are coming up and i thiught id be way more moved out and in but im not and im panicking, ill hardly have a new cosplay for AX and that sucks ass im not gonna lie.

Anyways this month was the worst

And shit happened with my spice shoot of the month so my best option is to wake up super early tomorrow and edit it all and try to post it before midnight . This just isnt who i am and i hate it.

Just thank you for being patient, i would sincerely rather be crafting and doing photo shoots. I want to be done with moving so badly i hope you know that. And im sorry that me moving again so soon is making my content decline in quality.

Im hoping soon ill catch a break

But anyways! Lets get some photos posted yeah? 🥰

Thank you for being here