Struggling (Patreon)

I'm having a really tough time mentally trying to get work done. I was diagnosed with ADD when I was in middle school and took medication for it briefly. I felt it stunted my creativity at the time so I stopped taking it. I ended up dropping out of high-school and getting my GED because I couldn't focus on homework or the class. 

At this point in my life my executive function is verging on a crisis. It's always been a struggle but this month has been the worst. I'll have good months and then a bad month where I just can't do anything for patreon. It's weird to describe but I feel like I'm screaming in my head to make my body do things and it won't. I'll get everything loaded up to work and grab my stylus, look at the half finished page and then put it down. I don't understand it. I'm tired of it and I'm certain you are too. I am going to seek professional help and try to find a medication that will help me get things done. No amount of anxiety or stress is pushing me to act like it has in the past. I just want to be able to sit down and finish things. It shouldn't be this difficult. I'm exhausted from it.

There's more I could get into but I'll leave it at that for now. I'm not lazy. I just have an issue with my stupid brain that's hindering me from following through with certain tasks. It's incredibly frustrating and depressing. 

Obviously there will be no charged posts this month. I will make it up to those that were charged for the two pages and animation from the end of last month. I'm sorry I disappointed you. I'll find a professional tomorrow and make an appointment. With the right medication and better habits I think I can get back to a regular upload schedule. 

I hope everyone is well and I'll have good news soon.