Annoyed (a rant in D minor) (Patreon)
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Part of me wants to keep quiet and just stay in my lane and do my own thing but I'm tired and my back hurts from carrying this around for so long. I find it difficult to continue in this profession when I'm orbited by leeches. What's the point of continuing when people will trace your work and pass it off as theirs? What's the point of sharing ideas that you want to make reality with your subscribers when others pounce on them like hyenas? Kennycomix is just Johnpersons 2.0. Pegasus traces entire comics of mine and even uses my characters. It's so frustrating. "Imitation is the sincerest form of flattery" is not for me. I'm not here to be flattered. Please fuck off and get your own ideas. Please fuck off and create your own characters and worlds. Please fuck off and learn to draw on your own. I'll even dedicate a "How To" in your name so you can figure out how to draw with out tracing countless images other people have produced.
Life has been rough for me and I've found it hard to execute my ideas in a timely fashion. I know many of you feel the same way, annoyed with infrequent posting, ideas left rotting on the vine. Believe me, my internal dialog echoes those sentiments daily. I hear it constantly from my own brain. Watching some hack trace work I did 5 years ago at an alarming rate and cashing in on it on patreon no less. Real neat. Cool stuff. Seeing some "producer" pay very talented artists to work on ideas I haven't gotten to yet but shared publicly, or even started on. Sick idea, bud. Where'd you come up with that one?
So I'm left with why bother? I'm already at the point of having to push through mental garbage to just sit down and work. Realizing that it's just going to be picked over and cannibalized by the most talentless hacks makes it even harder to find the will to make any of it a reality for you to enjoy.
I just wanted to get my feelings out there to maybe make some sense of what's going on with me. I appreciate that I had the opportunity to pave my own way working for my self and being independent but I didn't expect that other "creators" would be so dependent on me for style, proportions, aesthetics, themes, concepts, line work, poses, etc etc etc
Rant over. I'm going to jump around between continuing works this month at random. There will be more Damballah Island stuff since summer is coming to an end. I genuinely love my patrons. You're all encouraging and you've granted me a dream job. And don't you dare bother the people I've mentioned. Guaranteed they'll see it.
Maybe I'm out of line for bringing it up but I have zero fucks left to give.