Dear diary, I need a place to ramble… (Patreon)

December 5th, 2022

I tried to start a diary once years ago. It was one of those things that seemed cool and quirky in my head, like having a filled sketchbook or running a Youtube channel, but I quickly learned that it wasn’t for me. It felt awkward talking to myself, as awkward as talking to a camera and having to pretend you’re talking to real people (yeah, I tried that too).

But now I need a place to ramble, and knowing that some of you guys might read it this time, I feel like giving this diary thing another go. So I’ll have 2 main blog series on here: The ‘’A little about myself’’ you guys are already familiar with, and this new thing will be the place for me to talk about random stuff in my life.

I mentioned in my last post that winter this year has been surreal where I live, the level of heat waves is insane. I am fortunate enough to be able to work from home, so I don’t go out often. However, I had to pick up my mom at the airport today, so I finally got the chance to experience the December of 2022.

Climate change is a concept I’m familiar with. It scares me, but it also always felt so distant. The problem for someday over the rainbow I guess. That day is finally here for me. There’s an apocalyptic feeling in the air that I can’t shake off, and everything seems to tell me it’s already too late. But what am I supposed to do now? I can and will do my part to reduce my carbon footprint as much as possible, but I can’t help but feel small and helpless, because I know I won’t be able to change what’s actually happening. Maybe the most moral decision is to drop everything in life and become a climate activist?

On a brighter note, I’m pretty sure I’ve finally got rid of Covid. I’m still coughing like there’s no tomorrow, so much so that my head and stomach hurt from all that pressure. But the dizziness is light, the runny nose is tolerable, and I actually tested negative yesterday. Hopefully, these last symptoms will be gone soon so I can get back to my normal life.

I’ll definitely start working out again after this! I’ve bought some dumbbells, maybe I’ll get a pull-up bar too. I’ve been lazy and busy, I've neglected my health, but the last 2 weeks really put the fear of God in me. I might not be able to reverse the impending doom, but I can make sure my body stay in the best shape I can manage.