A lack of content. (Patreon)

Those of you who read the blogs will know i got sick with a painful cyst for two weeks this month.  It was very disruptive.  It also coincided with a visit from my nephew, and a new kind of problem with my left eye.  I don't intend to present these events as excuses, but as reasons for not being as productive as I might have been otherwise.  

This new migraine eye problem has been weirdly more disruptive than I originally expected.  At one point it sort of clicked part of my brain off that manages my creativity.  It's hard to explain but it felt like I had lost access to a fundamental part of what makes me able to create anything.  

Over the years I've trained myself to make things even when I'm not "feeling it".  So I can do it but I feel strangely apart from it when I do.  It was very rare before now, but I'm beginning to think something more might be wrong with me that will have to be dealt with.  It is very localized to my left eye socket and I don't exactly know how to explain it.  It comes and goes but I don't know what is triggering the problem, so I don't know what to do, or stop doing, to fix it.  I'm having problems with my insurance that are keeping me from getting any of this dealt with outside of being given antibiotics.  

Something similar happened on the day we buried my grandmother but it passed quickly enough I didn't really dwell on it.  I'm not sure if it is mental, physical, or a combination of the two things.  I've been having these tremors around the area and don't know if it's connected or just coincidence.  

For all I know this could be from getting new glasses.  I just don't know and that leaves space for my brain to fill in the gaps with worry.  

The long and short of it all is that I've been doing a lot of things as just one person for a very long time and it's all catching up with me.  I'm keeping up with the comic posts as best I can, but even getting them up at the agreed upon time has slipped.  Not by as long as even a day, but enough that it makes me unhappy for not holding up my end of this bargain.  

All of that is just a long way of saying I apologize for not meeting your expectations, and I will try not to let it become a habit.  I'm sorry for failing you.