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(triggers: mental illness)

This post is actually only happening because my significant other urged me to put it up and stop fretting because I tend to overthink my failures to an unhealthy extent.

Short summary is: I’m just in a rough spot at the moment!

It’s very personal to share, and I’m not a fan of over sharing, but I have borderline personality disorder. This disorder has been met with negativity and with negative connotations quite a bit in my life so I don’t talk about it a lot. I’ve also been in and out of therapy and I have pretty healthy coping mechanisms at this point, so I don’t normally feel the need to speak on it!

Unfortunately, my symptoms are heightened by the dark days of December here in Alaska where we get very little sunlight through the winter. I’ve been a little bit of a mess lately so I’m really sorry I haven’t been showing you guys much love!

I do love and appreciate you all and I am working really hard to get out of this funk!

Writing and creating brings me a lot of personal happiness so I just need to get in the groove. Unfortunately everything I’ve written lately has been met with some strong criticism from myself so I’m moving like a sad snail 😂. I’m really sorry if anyone has felt neglected on here because I really appreciate every single one of you and reading through what you all have to say brings me so much joy. I don’t want anyone to feel ignored!

My partner is getting some happy lights 😂 so hopefully that helps a bit!

Love you all, and if you’re in a dark spot of the world, we’ll get through this!