Girlfriend neeeds your attention! (Patreon)

Hello! I’m experimenting with a lot in this video and I'm very excited to share it! So I have deemed this the perfect first special video just for you, my dirty thirty! If you’d rather not have things spoiled for you stop reading now and watch! Meanwhile, I’ll be here rambling an awful lot :) ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~  

This is a girlfriend roleplay! She’s trying to grab your attention during a stormy night. It’s been a long time since I’ve done a gf roleplay and this particular scenario was suggested to me in the discord! (Thank you friends) I was very excited about the idea. I've seen a bunch of videos that play with the scenario but I haven’t personally watched any that give you a first person experience! Though I know they’re out there, and now there’s one more to add to that list! And it’s mine! which automatically makes it the best ;P hehehehe

Anyway, girlfriend has had a long day and you have too, but in a much different way, you’ve been home playing games all day and girlfriend had [responsibilities] and now she just wants to relax and be affectionate and sexy to youuu  

I wasn’t quite focused for this video. I have been struggling with that lately and I wasn't perfectly sure where I wanted to go with this at the beginning, but I ended up leaving most everything in this time, nip slips and all! It was just better with them in! And about halfway through I thought I might try something different 😉 it works well with the roleplay I think but it may have caused some inconsistencies.. I’m hoping you’ll be too distracted to notice. Also there's a feather on my eyelash for a few minutes towards the end that I somehow didn't notice.. oops  

It ALSO has rain and thunder and controller clicky sounds! It’s been storming a lot lately over here, and I can’t control the weather sadly. But I really love these sounds, so I’m kinda thankful for the natural ambience in this video! I hope you guys like it too.  

Let’s seee.. what else what else what else.. 

I was really excited to use this lotion for something! It’s CBD lotion and my back has been killing me lately. I need a new office chair for my editing station I think. So I ordered this stuff for my back and it’s so soothing and cooling and smells so delicious. I accidentally ate a little bit of it in this video, and I can confirm it did not taste delicious. But it was worth it! (I think) for the shot!  

Also, I've had a bad week.. month. It feels good to finally have finished a video I really like, but it's been a rough stretch! With vimeo kickin me out, getting mega folders and a website all put together, and cincopa douchery and the world is.. well you know the world. Things got all out of whack and with it, my mojo! And I really don't think I've been making quality videos- luckily you haven't had to see any of them. They're messy.  

EMOTIONALLY some days I feel so unmotivated and insecure and distant and other days I’m so driven and confident and passionate. It’s to such extremes, and I get so angry at myself when I’m the former because It feels out of my character and out of my control and I hate that. I want to believe that I can be and feel however I want to be and feel, but that’s just not how things work sometimes, it takes more than just wanting it! shits crazy.  I’m so glad I have mike and my animals and ASMR to love me and be with me when I’m feeling bad. It helps so much. But I really want to use you guys more too. You care so much about me and have such fresh perspectives and interesting thoughts that I could use more of I think. but it’s also hardest for me to ask for help when I really need it.  

I want to be open enough everyday to share my thoughts and videos like this! It's so exciting when I feel ready to break boundaries and explore something new.  I wish there wasn't a limit to what is new though, eventually everything will be used up and that scares me. And I wish I could do new things without obsessing over what people will think of it. I’m so worried that me changing over time will disappoint people, and change their opinion of me. Or sharing more of my body and even more of who I am will take away from the limitless imaginative experience! and all these conflicting thoughts make my head hurt. Sometimes I wish I didn't care so much but I wonder if I didn't if I'd still be me. I just want all the unconditional love in all the worlds!! 😍 Don't we all?  

But, so, yea, this video is late.. I'm sorry. and right after I said I'd be getting back to regularly scheduled uploads! arg..  

But you know, screw it! I was nervous but I am not anymore! When I used to accidentally slip nip it would make me panic inside. but making and watching this video and letting my nips slip was soo exciting and liberating! It makes my heart race in a good way, the same way my first bathing suit haul did, my first unrestrained ear licking video, my first blowjob video, my first over the shirt nipple action, and I can't wait to not worry so much about the little things and to just feel excited and free. So if I want to be a dirty girl and leave in the nip slips, I’ll leave in the nip slips! And I know my dirty thirty will love it ❤️ I'm sure you thought maybe something like this was coming along when I said I would experiment more and this is only the beginning! I have other ideas too. I've been working on some audio only files that are quite spicy and experimental and the etc.  

I’m sorry, I am in max ramble mode, and I'm very sleepy and droopy, time for aftyn's to go relax! I hope you all enjoy this video and all the videos I make forever and I love you!