For Relaxing Times <3 (Patreon)

Remember when I asked what relaxes you more than anything else? Well it wasn't for nothing because I took those comments and made a video out of it! Among others, you guys said that ASMR, weed, meditation, massages, reading, and drinking booze or tea relaxes you above all else so in this video I try to give you some tingles while we share those experiences together <3

This may not be for everyone, and I hope that you won't think less of me for drinking and smoking. It isn't healthy to develop a dependency on these things but in moderation I think they're just fine and can be a lot of fun (: I had a great time making this and afterwards I was so zen that I just went straight to bed! I hope that you are able to enjoy this experience as well and thank you all for leaving comments that I could use for the video :) 

P.S. This is not going to be your exclusive this month. It's just a bonus. (spoilers) I have a 'vampire begging to suck you dry' role play coming tomorrow that will be your actual September video. 

(aaand a quick vent session) I had wanted this one to go up for all of my Patrons but there's a little voice in my head that keeps saying "people are going to hate it", despite my wanting to share. This often happens before I publish something but I feel such unconditional love from so many of you and so happy when I share something, that I know powering through those anxieties will be worth it. However, since this particular video is just..me..doing random things.. I feel on the spot. I know it's important for me to overcome my fears, I know it's impossible to appeal to everyone, I know I should do what I want and love myself regardless of what anyone might say to or about me, but the thought of rejection or failure is still scary and I want to apologize for letting fear hold me back. I neglect YouTube so much, and I'm still not super confident playing as myself in a video. That's why for now, I feel more comfortable just sharing with you guys- If you can tolerate my live streams than hopefully you can enjoy this :)  

Alright.. enough about that! Enjoy the video :D I love you so much

-Aftyn