Update on How I'm Doing (Patreon)

Been a while since I've updated you all on how I feel about things, and the truth is kind of mixed.

I've been up and down, but work has been consistent at the very least. I'm getting rough drafts done for Coye vol 2 pretty fast and we're over halfway done, and I'm expecting to be done mid to late next month. I didn't meet my goal of having it done by the end of this month, but that's fine.

My mood has seen some pretty downward slopes this month, the Ukraine stuff in particular really worrying me even before the invasion started. I kind of struggle with nihilistic thoughts, like thinking there's no hope in the world and such, but the fact that Ukraine is fighting back really hard has helped with that a little. Just hard to keep positive anymore, but I'm trying.

This has kind of seeded over into my work on Rise of the Guild Master, though. I want to continue it but my motivation for it has been really bad. I'm just not happy with the direction things are heading in and I feel like I'd have to do so much rewriting and editing to be happy with things. I feel like things are just so cluttered and too much happens in a non stop pace, and the current arc doesn't help with that since it's essentially set to juggle Gwin and the new harem member back and forth.

I feel that by continuing to write RotGM I'm just adding even more broken crap to the pile of shit I'll have to fix one day, and while I want to, I also want to write more Coye for Kindle and work on the worldbuilding so I can have more of Karnalle fleshed out for even more spinoffs and short stories.

I did start Ch 276 yesterday, but going back to it has been bleh. It's probably better for me to just think of everything in RotGM as a rough draft and treat it as a continual learning experiment while moving forward while knowing I'm going to massively redo things eventually, but changing my mindset to this has been difficult and that's why I've slowed down on things, I think.

Then there's money, which has been pretty bad for me lately, and it's more enticing to me to write more stuff for Kindle Unlimited to further my career on there, since I'm really adamant about keeping RotGM free to read. Just tons of things to consider.

For the moment I'm just going to keep going forward and trying to refocus my mindset to help me get more done.