Alpha Beta - Chapter 10 (Patreon)

"Amy, Amy! Come on wake up” June shook me a little and I slowly woke up. When I came to, I looked around and saw a group of Alpha Beta girls standing around in my room with Brittany at the front. 

“Rise and shine, we want to move you in as soon as possible so we can get on with the orientation” Brittany said demanding, and came over to my bedside to pull off my covers. Quickly I remember my late night accident, and shot my hands down to cover my yellowed diaper. It was no use though, Brittany saw and with a smile, looked up to another girl. 

“Pass me a changing bag and give Amy and I the room for a minute please girls, help June get her stuff into the truck” and with a nod, a girl handed her a bad and they all left the room. June left last and had a confused and concerned look on her face. The room was quiet and Brittany looked down at me in bed. I looked up for a minute but quickly hung my head in shame and looked down at my large, inflated diaper.

“I just...couldn’t hold it anymore” I said softly, with a hint of childish inflection overtaking my normal voice. Brittany came down and sat on my bed, placing her hands in my hair.

“Hey, it’s okay. I know it’s strange at first but it’ll get easier. You know what I found helps?” She said. I looked up to her comforting eyes.

“What?”

“The girl who used to do my job here told me that the easiest thing to do is just let go.”

“Let go like...of the pee?”

She chuckled, “yes, that’s one thing. If you let go whenever you feel the need you won’t be in pain, but it’s also to let go of your fears and of the stigma.” I thought about what she was saying, and looked at her to continue. “Look, wearing diaper at our age isn’t normal or cool, but it’s what we have to do. You can’t let the fear of someone seeing you in a diaper, or the thought of wetting a diaper hold you back from living your best life, or even your normal life. You just have to accept it for what it is and not worry about it. Here lie back.”

She gently pushed me back into my pillow and pulled back the blanket fully. Then she grabbed a new diaper, powder and wipes from the bag and looked to my diaper. My hands were still clinging to the front, still trying to hide the accident.

“It’s okay, remember you’re surrounded by friends, sisters, who all do the same thing as you. Every member of AB has gone through what you’re going through, and every one of them has found peace. You’ll be fine.”

I smiled, comforted, and slowly removed my hands from the front of the diaper. Brittany saw it and her eyes widened. 

“Wow you really must’ve needed to go huh?” She laughed.

“Aha well yeah, I held it forever” I blushed and looked away.

“It’s like I said, just let go next time. If you do that, eventually, you won’t even feel the need anymore.” 

I stopped smiling and sat up as she was unstrapping my diaper tabs. 

“What do you mean...won’t feel the need…”

“Oh don’t get so worked up about it, it’s what the dean wants anyways. Most of the girls that join are completely incontinent within the first year, and there is very rarely a girl who leaves here with their bladder or bowel control still. It’s just what happens.”

“So you’re saying that I’m going to go from force to wear them to be in the sorority to…forced to wear them out of necessity?” I stuttered as my heart raced.

“Exactly. To be honest it takes the stress way off once your incontinent. Because then you’d be wearing them because you actually need them, it’s surprisingly helpful.”

“I don’t see how that’s helpful.”

“Aha, you will. Unless of course, you don’t think you can stay with us…”

I paused. She was tempting me to do so, but I knew the consequences. For some reason I was starting to get the idea that she didn’t like me, like she was...jealous of me. I couldn’t quite put my finger on it, so instead I just quietly sat back and let her finish my diaper change in silence. 

“The dean seems to like you” she said, and I could start to see where the jealousy might be coming from. “However, he doesn’t so much care for your friend. He thinks she wont last long.” 

I just stared up to the ceiling and let her finish the last few tabs on my diaper. “She’ll stay, she’s stronger than you think” I said sternly. As a response, Brittany pulled the tab a little too tight and make me wince. 

“We shall see.” She said, and got to her feet. “Now, put on some clothes and let’s get you to the house.” With that, she got up and opened the door. There were girls chatting and moving things around, and I just started out the door. June and I made eye contact and I could tell she was feeling that something wasn’t right too.

I pulled a loose pair of sweatpants over my diaper and quickly adjusted the tab that was too tight when no one was looking. Then I started collection my things and moving them to the truck that was outside parked just for us. I wanted to talk to June, say something about Brittany and the vibe of the girls, tell her to watch her back but there was always someone around. All I could give her were concerned stares and hope she was catching onto my thoughts.

Once everything was loaded up, the truck took off and the girls took June and I to a golf car type van thing to transport us back to the sorority house. I couldn’t help but look at the girls crotches. To a passive eye, you couldn’t tell there was diapers under their clothes. However if you were looking for it, you could just make out the outline of the thick white padding in some girls. I looked down at mine and for some reason I couldn’t help but notice it, but I guess I was probably overreacting.

The cart pulled up to the house; the truck had already arrived, and diapered girls were moving June and mines things into our new rooms. June and I shared a concerned glance, then held hands and walked up the stairs.