Omi the Fox (Patreon)

I'm sorry I didn't manage to finish the Ember pic on time... I planned to do it today but I don't know what happened but I suddenly started to feel so down and couldn't draw a line. I started to feel like everything I do is worthless and no matter how hard I try, I don't really belong anywhere. I was scrolling through groups on Discord and Telegram I'm a part of, thinking that I don't really understand these people in the end and will never fit anywhere. I looked at the huge list of people in my contacts I could talk to any time, but in the end not a single person who could share much with me. Anyone who could get excited about the same stuff and say "I understand". I kinda feel like an autistic kid, looking at the world and not understanding other people.

I eventually just went to bed when I made sure that I won't do anything productive today so I may as well sleep through it. I was thinking about stuff, mostly daydreaming, imagining things and I had this idea of a comic that could bring some kind of hope for anyone who feels the same. I got back to my PC, turned out everything but SAI and started drawing while listening to my favorite music from animations and games. I felt like a real artist doing actual art for the first time. Like I'm writing something down, instead of doing a random picture without any meaning. Something that happens because of a reason.

I had this idea of a young fox who is trying to find a part of the universe to belong. A character that many others could see themselves in. I'm considering giving away my name to him and making a new blog. It feels like it could be something nice and meaningful. I'm just afraid I won't be able to pull of good enough art for this.