Calling for help (Patreon)

Heya, horny fam.

I'll just be honest. I need help ;w;
I'm terribly in red & I'm pleading to those who've found enjoyment in my art, if you could, to chip in even a dollar: Ko-fi.com/ylvykofi

I will forever owe you my life!

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RANT ALERT:

I really feel lost.

Just paid last month's rent & now I'm left with less than 3 days worth of food money. Some utilities are probably going to be cut off in the next week or so. I can't take new commissions because I've taken a lot to get out of my last pinch & I can't finish my work fast enough because of all my chronic pain...

Looking at other artist being way more productive, add to it looking at how AI art has improved tremendously - made me feel terrible about the position I'm in. I honestly feel like I'm not offering much to society, and at times it makes me insecure.

"Maybe I'm in this position because I'm just not worth being cared for". I rationally know that's not true, and not a healthy thought... but I just feel very broken.

I've tried very hard to create the best art that I can within my capacity, but idk, it never felt enough.

Now I'm not saying I'm not also grateful to have my little band of supporters. The few patrons and familiar faces on discord and loyal commissioners.

I know I am something to you peeps & truly I'm happy for that. When I was in a pinch a few times before, some of you have bailed me out of it... You're all fucking awesome, truly. It's just...hard. In a way it makes me feel a bit guilty that I'm failing despite all your endless support. I know I shouldn't feel that way... but deep down, I do..

sigh

I wish these harsh days will be behind me & someday I can look back at it & be glad it's all over. Of course I haven't given up. When I came back from my last, long hiatus I was also similarly broken. But I tried to keep my feet moving.

I was lucky to get out of that owing a lot to people who supported me. Much love to you all!

Needless to say, I'm not done fighting. No worries. Any help I can get, I'll truly cherish. Every extra dollar is another breath of life to me and ever share matters. No matter what, I appreciate y'all who've stuck around with me! I promise I'll do my best to face this positively. Wish me luck, my horny fam 💖