A BIG OL' UPDATE (Patreon)

Hello my lovely Ghouls!

It's been a while, huh?

For the first part of this, uh, letter I'll be rambling a bit. I'll list down the important stuff summarized at the end so please at least check out the tl;dr!

To say things have been a little messy is an understatement. I had so many plans going into 2018 and the whole landlord situation put things to a screeching halt. The best way forward is of course to let it go and write the year off as a 'loss' and that's that. But it's hard because I feel so much guilt about letting you all down. Not just the infrequent uploads but the inability to keep up properly with the rewards. It's something I sincerely feel so bad about...

I think putting up the new 'combined' reward system has been working quite well, though, which I'm happy about. I'm much happier being able to create something more substantial as a reward. I am still trying to figure out what to do about the fan-sign tier, though. At this point it would be insanity to catch up with all the outstanding rewards in the same way, so I want to figure out a suitable replacement for that as well.

Maybe combining the old outstanding ones into equivalent combined videos? And then moving forward with something else... It's definitely something that's on my mind a LOT.

Regarding the channel content.. I feel like that's been going a little better. I've been able to put out videos a bit more consistently and I have enough ideas to tap into so I think that'll be okay moving forward. Even DitD is starting up again!! I'm confident I'll be able to create monthly episodes in the future. I already have the next one scheduled :).

As for the Patreon series "Emily's Inferno", I've got my work on that one scheduled as well so that should be continuing as well.

I guess at this point I'm at a stage where I'm VERY INSPIRED but also lacking in energy. I know the main reason is that I haven't been able to settle into a (rigid) daily schedule since my move. That was something that I was quite strict about before but I just haven't been able to find my flow again. I don't know if it's the new environment or I just need to be a little harder on myself. Regardless, its something I'm going to have to figure out. But I just wanted to share it with you to give you a bit more of an insight of how things are going.

I think the lack of energy (or motivation, if you will) to actually pump out more work also has a lot to do with the (excuse the dramatics) "state of ASMR".

Don't get me wrong, I still love ASMR, I love making videos and telling stories. I just don't feel the same connection with the community at large anymore. Which is something I definitely used to and I do miss it. Of course, it's not something I have a lot of influence on as an individual. The only real solution I see is to connect more with you, our community, to get that connectedness I crave.

Enough rambling, I think...??

Here's the bullet points that are important~~

If you're a patron that's still got rewards to cash in, PLEASE message me about it! I've worked through my queue (or at least am in communication with those who have outstanding rewards atm). If you HAVE sent it to me and I haven't delivered yet please also message me!

If you need the link to where I track the rewards message me and I'll send it to you.

Please don't worry about 'overwhelming' me with your requests. I'll list them all and work through them but it's actually easier for me to work when I know what the workload is~

For the fan sign or art tiers, please let me know what you'd prefer. If you want, we can work out a reward one on one (that sounds weird lol, I just wanna make sure everyone is satisfied with their patronage!).

I mentioned above that maybe we can combine them into an equivalent video/audio reward. Or whatever else combination you'd like.

Also, I'm very much open for ideas on the tiers~!

Second most importantly... If you have ANY feedback whatsoever I would love to hear it. On my channel, the rewards, the content I've been putting out (or not putting out). Please know that I'm always listening and if you're unhappy about anything I'd really like to know.

AND FINALLY... MOST IMPORTANTLY.....

I appreciate the absolute HECK out of you. I know it's just words but I feel it deep in my bones. For someone who's just a weirdo on the internet, someone with stupid issues and a couple complexes.... x)

...having so many absolutely amazing human beings support me in all these ways.. it's unreal. I'm thankful (and ridden with guilt on occasion...) beyond belief for everything.

I love ya'll faces <3

XOXO Indi~