Hi! It's my face! Also, some updates & changes (Patreon)

Hey guys!

First off, I hope you're all doing well. Secondly, I'm sorry this update is a little late.

I'll be rambling a little bit and answer some of your questions at the end of this.

In my latest video I mentioned there being a couple reasons for my not uploading the past couple weeks and that I couldn't really talk about it publicly, for now anyway. One of the reasons is that my landlord has been putting increasing pressure on me with threatening messages and even stalking. He mentioned how he went through my channel and watched videos, specifically those where I talked about my current situation.

Just knowing that he's 'watching my every move' and commenting on how pathetic I was etc, really upset me. I'm just a girl living alone and while I have a lock on my door I do have to move through the house to go outside/use the bathroom/use the shower.

Honestly I don't know why he's doing all this and especially how he feels like this this is normal/acceptable but there's nothing that really can be done about it (trust me, I've exhausted all options at this point).

Anyway, I just wanted to give a bit more insight on that because I feel like it wouldn't be right for to give the impression that I just wasn't doing stuff out of laziness.

I will be trying to get myself over that fear and uploading regardless of what he might think about it.

As far as my actual situation, not much has changed. I still don't have internet access at my house, but I do travel to my fathers house on occasion so I upload something in that time (though he doesn't have great connection either, lol). He also helps me with my laundry, bless his heart (since the landlord took away the machines).

Of course I am still looking, but there just isn't much to be found here for anything under a 1000 euro's a month for a 2 room apartment (that's about 1200 USD). I know eventually I will find something though, just gotta be both patient and proactive (which I've been~).

Now, on to channel/patreon stuff.......

I've been thinking a lot about that and it's really eating at me. I hate not being able to put stuff out there, and even more so I hate how behind this has gotten me on the rewards. Again I want to reiterate that I WILL get to it all. Nobody is getting skipped or forgotten. Patreon is great in that it keeps logs of everything you 'owe' your patrons.

But I do want to propose an alternate solution. Many of you are owed 1 or more months of the custom clips and audio's. These are just a couple minutes long, but do require me to set up, fix up my face/costume etc. So it'll take a lot of time and work to do those for a couple months. So what I want to propose is a voluntary exchange.

Say, you're owed... 5 months of 1-2 minute video clips. What we could work on is COMBINE those into a longer video of 10+ minutes. So basically a full commission. You can decide for how long you want to save them up, I don't mind if it's up to a half hour video, really.

So please, if you're commenting.. please let me know if you'd be up for something like this. You don't have to and if you'd rather have the short clips you will get those, but combining a couple months would definitely help me out & get you your rewards faster. Plus I do feel like I would be able to create a better product with a longer video/audio.

If people are down for this, I'll set up a system for this and we'll see how that works out.

Despite my situation I definitely want to get back to work to make a dent in the work that's been piling up. While things have been against me, I have to acknowledge that I have been letting it get me down a little too much and perhaps in general I bit off a little too much than I could chew.

So yes, please let me know. You guys are my heart and I'm so extremely blessed and grateful to have you here supporting me. I want to do right by you and give back properly.

Now, some FAQ stuff...

You have internet?? How are you posting?!

Every couple weeks I visit my dad who's limited connection I can use. I also have a little bit of expensive phone data I can use to check in with and upload small files. 

Where is my reward?

I promise that it's coming. Read a bit above if you want to see my proposal on them.

When will your situation be back to normal?

Honestly, it's hard to tell. I really hope it'll be soon but I can't really make any predictions atm.

Will you be doing normal videos again, showing your face?

I'll try to see what I can do. I don't want to compress them because it'll affect the quality, but I could possibly see what I'm able to record/upload. Also, I do have some older videos saved up which I'll be indexing soon and possibly release slowly over the coming weeks.

Do you still love us?!

YES! Very much <3


So, I hope that clears things up a bit. I know it was a bit rambly... I totally blame the heat, lol. if you have any questions or concerns please leave them in the comments. Also, please let me know if you'd be down for The Exchange~

Lots of love, gratitude & appreciation,

Lisa