❆ bone-chilled bats - january sticker club (Patreon)

hi all!! happy january~ here's the jan sticker club rewards - many bats ft. 1 extra die cut sticker for each patron for being here thru the new year! I couldn't fit them all in one sheet ;w;

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thank you all for being here! soppy life shit/emo/pensive snow day thoughts incoming, tldr I'm depressed but thank u all for being here~ 

(˶˃ᆺ˂˶) like many plugged into the wired in this cyberpunk world, it's been a wild ride to constantly witness the world and retain forward energy. this winter was brutal for my tattoo bookings despite my preparation. watching all my friends and people around me struggle thru having enough $ for basic needs hasn't been easy. watching catastrophe has been insane. it also cemented in the fact that I've put most the strings of my self-confidence into my art/tattoo practice. this is great in the sense that I beam after going to my qtpoc studio, I have so much fun being social and helping other poc/queer/trans/gnc etc. people feel better in their bodies. I love getting dressed up and going out to work! when stuck to the inside + digital realm I think it's difficult to not see myself in a fun house mirror - the grip of white greed on all major social media platforms has become nearly too much to deal with. overt censorship, ai-recognition, needing to center split-second attention span videos, etc. preying on our self-worth. 

mentally I think I've struggled to settle since I had to suddenly move out during my hysterectomy healing 8 months ago - despite communication I was experiencing quite an uncomfortable living situation and wasn't able to heal like I needed to. it put me in more debt than I've ever experienced before, as I'm gen-z and I never went to college or taken out a loan to avoid it. doesn't matter in america, just need one surgery to get some! ૮ ◞ ﻌ ◟ ა been mixed up about even the decision to go thru with my trans-affirming surgery bc the negative ripple effects. I know it was for the best and I feel so much healthier in some ways, but struggling to get out of the mental spiral of american $$$. I hope as winter rolls over into spring I'll have more bookings and can start paying it off more! 

I think patreon has been a good alternative that genuinely helps me exist while social media gets more poison for me. I love watching friend tv, and always have been a terminally online freak, but I can't tik-tok or reel for pleasure. my brain is already falling out of my ears working 50+hrs a week and social media has often just been a brain cage for me. I was raised pretty anti-authoritarian so I think it's been hard to play into the insta game lately bc I think too much lol. it's much more rewarding to think abt how I can have the area to present you all my projects in framing that's not plagued by ads and is just centered around art! come to think of it, I think that's the only reason why I ever started posting online in the first place! 

♡ all in all, what keeps me going and what always has is art and patrons of the arts. ♡ thru the last few months, you've all helped to feed me, my partner + corgi, keep us housed and warm and I am so beyond grateful for that. I'm really just here to stay up late, paint silly creatures on the walls and eat funny leaves with my friends by the fire!! thank you all for chilling with me~

♡ reminder that I also post on the hournoon discord and and paid members have access! since I have a top-down recording setup I hope to start looking into streaming this new year, excited to hang out with you all more~ ❆ getting discord access ❆