Long absence. (Patreon)

Hey guys. This has been a long absence, however, this absence wasn’t voluntary. There was a string of events that happened one after another that prompted me to step back for a time.

It all began with a Hardware failure. My PSU failed and I was unable to get one on time since it was around a friday (there are no shipping on weekends in here.)

After I ordered a PSU, there was an issue with the order and basically, the store ran out of stock and didn’t want to refund me. Thankfully, we used a platform, so it was a matter of telling them what happened and I got the money back. Still, no PSU.

During that time, we got the news: a close family member was sick and it’s struggling. It was under these times where stress was in an all-time high. I tried to keep composure but I wasn’t able to.

Some days pass and I found another PSU, and I made the order. It is actually on track and it’s going to arrive soon. The next day of ordering the PSU, we got the news: my family member lost the battle.

When that happened, I was devastated. I tried really hard to get back on my feet, but it was really hard. I understood that I was forcing myself to heal, which is not how things work. Still, this loss hit me so hard, that I’m honestly questioning if I should continue with this or not. I’m honestly considering finishing the book, maybe 1 month of questions and then call it. I know it’s some sort of self-blame because I got the news when I was looking to work on the book, but also I know I couldn’t know any better this was happening. It’s just a consideration though.

Even right now, I’m still hurt, but I can interact with people now. I won’t do it right now though, I’m just making this post because I need to check if I actually paused the pledges or not, so I’m basically posting this and then I’m logging out.

I’m not writing this looking for sympathy or looking for a pity party. I’m doing it because it’s the right thing to do.

Take care and wash your hands.