A intense week (and month...) (Patreon)

Past week have been hard, I kept thinking about what happened to Mabel, there was also the day of trans remembrance about remembering trans people who were murdered for being trans... this combined with my own difficulties with my transition put me in a very depressive mood, I also felt burn out of being trans, like somekind of battle fatigue. So I lost a lot of drawing time. :( 

Losing precious drawing time is sad and also frustrating but I am feeling better now. Being able to draw and to record episodes of my podcast helped me, also having a positive workday at the library without misgendering or people looking at me in a invasive way helped. 

At the beginning of the month I changed my progesterone prescription from a synthetic one to a bio identical one, so this maybe had a impact on my emotions, but it is hard to tell what is due from my hormones and what is due to my situation and my feelings. 

Yesterday I went to a women center to testify for a university study about street harassment in Montreal. This was a intense 4 hours but sharing my testimony with other women helped me to let go of some intense emotions. I am glad I went, I was the only trans woman present, so I think that my voice was meaningful and important. 

I was also able to GM a game of Octane a old "narrative" based game set in a gonzo post apocalyptic setting. We had a lot of fun. Also I played with my camera on and it made me feel good to be able to. :) 

Today I am trying to do some catching on my commission works and on my own projects. 

(the title image is a talisman that my friend Zviane drew me to protect me this week <3)