Changes (Patreon)

Dark thoughts and emotions caught up with me yesterday. I managed to pass through them but I still feel vulnerable. This happened because I feel a lot of dysphoria lately and because Twitter have a negative influence on me. The way the plateforme is built, it encourage me too much to compare myself with successful designers and artist and even with other trans women who are doing a better transition than mine (being younger or wealthier). I made some new contacts but most of them were not interacting back with me. I thought about the positives and the negatives of keeping my Twitter account and the negatives outweighed the positives so I decided to permanently delete it. Now I have to resist the temptation of logging back for 30 days for my account to be deleted, what a manipulative procedure designed to lure people back in. 

But I think that some good will come from this, I will gain back some focus and I will move back toward my blog and Patreon to express myself. I think that I achieve more posting here and on the Cauldron. I also have more meaningful social interactions on different Discords.