Aroma Sensei by Aroma Sensei <З (Patreon)

Hello, my Dear patrons!

First of all, I want to thank you guys for being with me. It gives me a lot of energy and confidence in my creativity! The second thing is that it was very difficult for me to write this text because I have a limited knowledge of English. But I am working on it!

Brief summary of what will be in this big text:

-My little story. 

-A new look at art. 

-My gratitude to you!

-Exactly 3 years I am drawing erotic.

-This is the 3 year anniversary!

You may have noticed that I am less active now as of a couple of months ago. I’m a little embarrassed, but there are reasons for that. I don’t want to make excuses, I just want to talk to you sincerely. I want you to know my thoughts and emotions. I want to be a bit closer with my patrons. Therefore, I will try to tell you about my feelings, as far as I can. 

Right before the quarantine, I wasn’t in my home country. But in February I felt the need to get back home or I'll be stuck for a long time. So, I flew home by plane. When the quarantine started, some very unpleasant things happened to my relatives. This meant I had to move again. Moving is very hard for me and I feel a little lost at this time. 

At that time, I started hiding from the whole world for a huge amount of work. I had never drawn in that state. I didn’t want to think about what’s going on in my life, so I started to draw for 10-15 hours, every day for 3 months. For the first 1.5 months it seemed to me that everything was cool. I think only about drawing since it helps me stay less stressed. 

But in the end I am very tired. My immobile body started to give up. I’m tired both mentally and physically. My perfect eyesight has dropped and other health problems have become more evident. I forgot not only about problems, but also about my body.I`m very demanding to myself. I didn`t know to pity myself. This feeling of self-hate has always been with me. I always had to prove something to myself. To do more. Make it better. No pity and no love to myself. You know, I write and my tears are almost flowing. Looking back, I understand how sick my mind was.  And I`m happy that I realized it and now I am in love. I feel love for myself. I want to continue to make progress in drawing and make the hottest and sexiest content for you!

Getting back on topic...Since I painted more, more and more people saw my art. More subscribers appeared and with them came the haters of my art. I have seen criticism in my direction before. I have a normal attitude towards it. I know that my drawings are far away from ideal. But at that moment, dirty comments overlapped constructive criticism. For me, it was amazing. Amazingly sad haha. My drawings are like my children. In general, at that moment it really upset me. Also, I didn`t get support from my friends on this occasion and I felt a little lonely. Of course, in the end I`m very grateful to some people who criticized me. I`m very happy that even among the garbage, I was able to find important advice for myself. This is a step forward.

A year ago I had a feeling and a desire to make something more than pictures. So I made the decision to draw comics! So my goal was to make best comics as I can, good enough to jerk off on it!:D (It was the meaning of my life) Something that can distract you from reality and immerse you in something nice, beautiful, sweet! In a care-free and dirty world. 

Unfortunately some people don't understand how important something can be for someone else. Just unhappy and lonely people that I can't be angry or offended with. I forgive them. I even love them. But for many reasons my attitude towards art, has changed. 

I became more conscious and I feel that I was doing a lot of things not from my heart, but because it was necessary. Now I don`t want to draw like this. I want to give you only true love. Only the truth. I`m not so active right now, I need time to restore my mana, because I worked so hard for so long. I had a while to rethink my art and what meaning I put in there. My worldview is being rebuilt. The world around me becomes different. It's as if I woke up after a long sleep. The full understanding of what I want to do can`t be formed right away. 

I hope you understand me.^^ I want only the best for you. Perhaps, there will be more original content. I hope you and me will be interested and have fun in this journey. 

Thank you for being with me! Because of you, I can draw at my own pace! You are such caring and understanding people. I write this because I know it. Thanks to you, I can pay for my rent and food! I can maintain my health and even rest. Recently I bought a new monitor. It's so beautiful! I like it so much, I am very happy! I love you! I love you with all my heart! Your support is the best and for that I am grateful, it's a declaration of love for my art. It is unbelievable...

I`m unbelievably happy! Thank you! 

I translated this text for about 4 hours. Then my brilliant omega Chad of a gamer boy; Funnaycrap, edited it! (Editor's Note: Totally not overblown from what was actually said)         
I would also like to add that if I'm always very quiet, it's just because I don't understand English well and I don't want to write you some rambling nonsense. I would like to be completely connected with you, but alas so far I'm not. I`ll try and work on it.

Thank you for your attention, for your love and faith for my art!

Now about the art that I drew. This art is a kind of promise to bake the most delicious cakes for you! In August 2017 I quarreled with my mom, left home, quit from my job, transferred to another department at the Art Academy and decided that I will draw eroticism. It was fun haha. For me, it was the beginning of something lovely. This is a self-portrait of Aroma\me :D

P.S. Don't think that I have such big melons :D It's just for art!

LOVE YOU!