Happy new year 2023! + Rant and Important info (Patreon)

TLDR: Happy new year! Thank you so much for all your support, after two years full working here full I think it's time to do some changes needed for my health's sake, nothing is set on stone, i'll start slow and will always let you know with time what's to come before making any moves
Buckle up, this will be LONG

Happy new year!
Now for all of you who want to read the whole story i want to start by thanking all of you for being here with me, i am really grateful you have been let me have art as my main job and despite all the ups and downs it's thanks to all of you i have been able to improve and learn so much as an artist 💖

The way i have been feeling lately
However after what happened in december made me start to think a lot about how patreon has been slowly taking a toll on me, while i have been able to create so many pieces of art it usually ends up affecting my physical health (due lack of sleep, overworking myself to meet the deadlines and overstressing myself) and my mental health (due being too strict towards the quality of my art, giving up on irl stuff to work on art instead and in general not being able to do things for my sake for prolonged amounts of time). This has been slowly causing me to not enjoy as much the process of drawing as i did before and as an artist that really hits hard when you realize to the point where i have even been contemplating the idea of quitting art when i'm on my lowest

The last few free days i had of December i started to have a some fun again drawing silly things and very overindulging things for myself which made me realize how much i missed to draw just for fun however there was still this lingering feeling of guilt for "wasting time" on myself rather than finishing the pending rewards so it gave me very mixed feelings until due many things that happened those days along with the rest of the month caused me a small breakdown, things are much better now after talking with some friends and i am taking a bit of a rest just to make sure i'll be okay so don't worry about it.

Thoguhts about the nonkink of content
At the same time with this coming year I really would like to focus more on my SFW accounts, one of my NY resolution from last year was to get a job (focusing mostly on coding and programming stuff) which sadly didn't happen after some interviews so maybe this time i would like to give the artistic side a try and while i have a lot of drawings done thanks to patreon none of them are "the best" if you know what i mean to fit in a portafolio so i need to work on making stuff i can share outside the kink circle plus most of my SFW accs are pretty much inactive for long periods of time since i barely get anything done there aside of the bgs of some rewards or people commissioning me sfw stuff

As well since i have been focusing all my time and energy into the rewards i haven't been able to make other kind of content i like which isn't drawing related such as developing my vtuber "career", doing voice acting, working on videos about games, sometimes even streaming because when i get to have time maybe i don't have the motivation and the other way around, it also was a hard hit for me

Not to mention that this year i will attend to an anime expo along with a couple of friends where we will be selling merch so i have to pretty much rework all the merch i did a long time ago because i want to believe i can do a better work and i'll need a lot of time to do that

What's to come
Okay so now the important part, what does all of this means to us patrons? Well if i'm being honest i haven't decided yet, while i have some ideas i'll mention you shortly nothign is set on stone, the only thing that will probably be assured will be that i'll take february off to focus on the merch i have to do and remember that before doing any kind of changes i will always let you know and ask for opinions, afterall this is still my job and i want to make sure you get your money worth in quality art

So my first idea will be tweaking a bit the poll by getting rid of the coco place of the month, while i think it's very fun to be able to pick something from the poll myself it also means doing an extra drawing even if it's just a sketch it does still takes time and planning to do, that will leave us with only three drawings coming from the poll but I was thinking that maybe instead of having a two part sequence for the first place we could just have three different boys winning the poll with each getting a colored sketch, that way ties wouldn't matter as much because all of the three get the same kind of reward

I know many may not like the idea of taking away one of the poll rewards however hopefully that will help me to deal better with my health while also feeing up some time to work on more stuff such as commissions, requests fests and more personal stuff so don't worry content will probably still come! At the same time if you're interested i can post every single drawing i do for SFW in here, i know most of you are interested only in kink related content but that way you can still get to see art from my part that most of the people in the coco acc cannot see

I will mostly take these two months to think things through and do multiple posts to know that all of you will be okay with any changes that happen while i would also know what you think or if you got some ideas you would like me to try none of these changes will happen right now, i calculate that around march will be when any of these ideas will take effect, until then i'll keep you updated and ask for your opinion

Thank you!
If you are here after reading the whole thing i just want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart, being entirely honest i am very scared about doing these kind of posts because of fear that people won't like the changes but i think it's about time to focus a bit more on myself, my health and my well being, i am really grateful for having all of you and those who understand my feelings and respect them, like i mentioned before nothing is set in stone, i just wanted to have a space to vent a bit and let you all know the way i feel, sorry if it's too long but i have been carrying this for a long time and until december's breakdown it was when i had to step back and meditate about everything, I hope you will still support me as the time passes by and if you don't that's entirely okay and understandable afterall we all have to spend our money wisely.

Thank you for also taking the time to read all of this that does mean you truly care about the person behind the art, hope you have a very lovely year and that only good things come to all of you 💖
Also sorry if there are awful grammar or redaction mistakes, i'm literally writing as i keep thinking and despite trying to format it in a more digestible way it's still a mess adinijsk