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Hi guys!!

How are you?

Let's cut to the chase. I'm a little bit overwhelmed right now. I love adding new shows and things to my schedule because I like that type of change. I always thought I hated change like when I finish a show, what am I gonna do X day now if I've been watching this for a year straight? but at the same time I *have* to have a bit of change in my life. I move furniture around at least twice a month, that's when I'm being lazy cause having the apartment look the same for too long its depressive to me. Same goes to my schedule. Having it be the same for too long makes me depressed. Dont know why, dont ask lmao but I cant just do the same thing for too long without spicing things up a bit or I get down. Most jobs I had in my life I didnt last over 3 months and not long ago I realized that it was because it was always the same. I guess that's why I loved (love) cosplaying and voice over acting, because I got to be someone else for a bit. Its weird, dont know if I'm explaining myself very well but that's why I keep adding things to my schedule. I'm not saying I'm bored of what I'm currently doing like Buffy, Angel, The Good Place etc. Not at all, I cant imagine my life without these shows in my wekly life and that's why when I finish a show I get very sad xDU but I *need* that change so I add more things to my schedule and more shows and at some point its just too much, I'd rather not eat because cooking is a waste of time and I'd rather edit this, and this, and film this. And when I dont eat right I feel tired, have zero energy, pass out etc. I have been anemic before in my life and it felt the same so I guess that's it?? idk.

I decided to put Firefly on hold until I finish The Good Place. I have the pilots ready for you guys to chose which show I should continue but that's gonna be put on hold also, I'm sorry. Beastars or whatever anime I'll be reacting to wont be put on hold because I do that mostly for myself, I like reacting to anime and even though its not as popular as other shows I wont put them on hold. They're short so I finish them fast and I get to go to the next one faster than a show and I just love watching anime so xD I'm an Otaku that does take showers (when I have water lmao).

Firefly its not enough because I also want to react to Loki, Falcon and the Winter Soldier and many other shows, also continue watching the shows I put on hold years ago because of the exact same thing lol I wont be doing that for a while for obvious reasons but Loki is a must and Falcon and the Winter Soldier I'm still thinking about it because The Walking Dead is airing this week and... you know.

I know most of you understand, I know most of you have already told me to chill xD but I'm not a chill person, I'm an anxious person and I overthink and overthink until I break down for a couple of days and continue with my life lol this is not only about the reactions this is about everything and anhything in my life, I'm one of those.

So, yeah. I'll be putting Firefly on hold since I'm barely starting to edit those reactions and none have gone public on facebook. When I feel more comfortable and better about the schedule I'll release the pilots to pick which show to continue and post the full reactions, edited reactions will take longer, when Firefly is done or another show to replace them (I'm in the final season of Beauty and the Beast so we'll see). I'm really sorry, everything is my fault because I'm the one making the bad decisions (my life is based on one bad decision after another lmao) so you're allowed to be upset about it but just know that I'm really sorry and it is never my intention to put any show on hold even though I've done it quite a few times lol anyways that's all I wanted to say, I'll be posting this week's schedule soon aaaand I'll be late with WandaVision lol still putting the subtitles. Thank you for everything <3