a cosplay character (Patreon)

 Before I talk about cosplay, I'd like to do a little less important.
I'm sure I'll have a gigantess cosplay some day, but unfortunately not this time. This cosplay is purely for 'pretty'.

Perhaps you know that I'm a man in his 30s. That is, I spent a third of my life in the 20th century. And in that 20th century in Korea, there was a custom of calling a child ugly.
This did not really matter whether he was ugly or not. They believed that a little boy was short-lived when he heard a lot of 'pretty'. My family and townspeople liked me quite a bit, so they kept calling me 'The Ugly' for me.

Naturally, I was obsessed with the "unpretty" values of my own after such a childhood.
Now I hate to see my face on my own, and I'm morbidly reluctant to see myself smiling or crying in pictures. So far, there has been no mirror in the room. Whenever someone told me I was 'good-looking,' I thought he teased me and responded aggressively.

I already know rationally. I'm normal, and others don't really make fun of my face.
I'm not handsome, but I don't have any facial problems to the point of being morbidly afraid of.
However,I have been suffering from alone trauma for more than 30 years so far. It took a special challenge to fix it.

Most Korean men of my age probably have these symptoms. I want to have a normal mindset like everyone else. I don't want to run away looking at the camera anymore, and I want to allow a mirror in my room.
(The mirror was brought in a while ago. I'm not facing it yet.)
I hope that with this shoot, I can see myself. :)

There are many questions about foot pictures.
The photographer I'm hiring now is a stranger to our genre. :)
It would therefore be impolite to ask for it.
But if this shoot ends successfully, and if I overcome my problems, the next one will definitely do it. 

 Oh, I almost forgot the important story.
The character to be cosplayed is like a picture.
It's Niaruko from Haiyore! Nyaruko-san. :)