Diary Entry #14 (Patreon)

Dear Diary,

Today was an absolute nightmare, diary. I'm drowning in a sea of failure and frustration, and I can't seem to find a way out.

The rehearsals for Romeo and Juliet have been a disaster from the start. No matter how hard I try, I just can't seem to get into character. The director keeps saying I'm not giving it enough passion, but how can I when I can't stand the guy playing Romeo?

Speaking of Juliet, I caught Lily reciting her lines behind the stage today. At first, I tried to brush it off, but the more I think about it, the more I can't shake the feeling that she's gunning for my lead role.

I don't want to believe it, diary. Lily's my friend, my confidante. But then I remember that she got that commercial gig without even telling me, and suddenly, the pieces start to fit together.

Is she trying to steal my spotlight? Is she trying to sabotage me out of jealousy or ambition? I don't want to accuse her without proof, but the doubt gnaws at me like a hungry beast.

And to top it all off, I'm failing miserably at the part. No matter how hard I try, I can't find the passion within me to bring Juliet to life. It's like I'm stuck in a never-ending nightmare, and there's no waking up.

I don't know what to do, diary. I'm lost, alone, and sinking deeper into the darkness with each passing day.

Yours in despair,

Wawchan

P.S. This is my audition image, what do you think?